...Lost In Beauty...

Sunday, October 31, 2004

jus got home frm a lunch and abit of shopping wit my fwen at Tampines Mall..alot of peeps at Tamp Mall manz..gosh..crowded..well..ate lunch-cum-dinner at Ajisen..haha..so full..by the way, i think it has been sometime since i went TM lei...piangz..all change lei..got railings at the CPF building dere..den TM got open plaza dere..and the open plaza got some exhibition frm Starhub..piangz..i dunno lei..keke..was telling my fwen how kuku i was..haha..staying in Tamp area and not realizing..keke..so paiseh..after eating, my fwen gotta buy some stuffs...needed to buy Quarter socks lor..so, went Sportslink...realized tt the socks cannot make it de..too long liao..den dun haf quarter socks..den bo bian..walk to Isetan Sports section..oso cannot..no quarter socks..somemore my fwen was quite query abt the socks lor...decided to go Century Square..got Royal Sporting House ma..go 2nd floor liao, realize close..wa lau..pek cek..den i ask my fwen to go tk a look at Giordano..in the end, buy dere...piangz...Tamp Mall oso have ma..haha..but we din realize la..keke..i saw 1 shirt tt i wanna buy at Giordano..nice color.."suits me"..tt's wat my fwen said..keke..yupz, i'm gonna buy..will go on a shopping spree wit patsy babe soon..cant wait liao..keke..den we walk walk abit lor..den we go back Tamp Mall again..fwen needed to buy some raisin bread..whaha..headed to NTUC lor..buy liao..got free bottle of drink..tk oredi, need to head back soon le..i shop abit, while walking to the car lor..asked my fwen wat time leaving.."soon" was wat my fwen said..hmmm..okae..den headed back to the car, den go my place le lor..sat at the playground awhile to chat..cuz still got time..chat alot lor..realize time passes real fast..hmmm..i took my fwen's watch..cuz nice..keke..Nike de..orange color somemore..my fwen say "wear lor..tk it wit u lor"..hee...den i not paiseh..i wear lor!..haha..7.15 liao, den my fwen say gotta leave liao...cuz he needs to book in liao ma..we walked back, he send me back to my hse, den we said our good byes lor..he gave me a hug la..which is unexpected de..piangz..den he left le lor..i said my byes, he said his byes..and here i am now lor!..kinda sleepy le..been tired dese days..reaching home at 5am plus..close to 6 lidat..keke..alrighty, i'm still waiting if my classmates are meeting me in the noon..hmmm..okae..gotta go watch some tv liao..gonna plan wat phone to buy..either Nokia 7610 or Nokia 7260..still considering..fwen said dere's no bluetooth in 7620..so abit no use..still thinking ar..went to see phones jus now oso..hmmm...think think ba..alrighty peeps, gotta chao oredi..tired la..keke..tk care all!!..

...beauty exposed ;

well well..finally get back my beauty slp..been kinda tired these days..haha..been going out till late nite..wit my fwen..hmm..
yday wasnt supposed to be going out de..i stayed home the whole day..but at ard 10 plus, i received a call frm my fwen..asking me to go eat supper together..so, ok lor..waited fer my fwen to fetch me..argh..charcoal was at home yday..oh my god..i had difficulty taking care of 2 dogs man..cant focuz too much attention on 1 dog..the other will get jealous..haiz..gotta be fair..haha..but i had fun la..oh..ok..i got ready in a while den waited fer my fwen lor..after my fwen reach, we headed to Desker Road..(eh..dun anyhow anyhow think hor..its the Dim Sum lor..at Swee Choon)..supposed to be going satay club de..but change lor..i ate my Har Kow!!..keke..lurve harkow..but i called Patsy la..was checking if she got study anot..GOT ANOT BABE?!..keke..den chatted wit her awhile..realized Janey Babe is at West Coast wit her uncle k-l..hahahaha...i msg her dun hanky panky..but she no reply lei..sadz..after tt, i hang up, den accompany my fwen liao..talked and eat..eat and talk lor..keke..after tt, we left..fwen brought me to some unfamiliar place..but keep insisting i noe where i am..den i think i noe where i am la..haha..abit familiar nia..realized its near my fwen's hse..haha..or should i say its my fwen's hse..keke..we left, headed to Clarke Quay..piangz!..so many peeps wearing halloween clothes!..so nice!..saw this guy wit a knife in the head, lady wearing nurse clothes..saw some monster..so cute!..haha..too bad i din go and enjoy the party la..i was walking along and chatting lor..den we walk to the boat dere..look so deserted..in the end, i dun wanna go..feel funny..headed to Brewerkz dere to sit and chat..after the lights out, we left liao..we headed back to the car..den my fwen say got something fer me..ask me to find in the car..piangz..i find find..find find..find until pek cek..dun wanna find..in the end, its jus rite at the mirror...piangz...its a Hello Kitty!!..hahaha..cute cute..keke..the rest, dun tell u all liao..whaha...
i reach home at 5 plus..only to find both dogs aint sleeping..piangz..couldnt slp until 6 plus, i fed jumbo..den i bth liao..i go slp liao..until now, i wake up le lor..going out fer lunch later wit my fwen again..keke..*happy*..

Cindy Babe: wa babe..u frm fri till now, no news lei..keke..wats up babe??...haha..talk to u again ya..keke..miss ya!..

Patsy Babe: wei wei..i call u is to find out if u got study anot de hor..den i added some rubbish talking hor..u dun k-po hor..keke..*will tell u when i mit u*..hahahha..miss ya babe!!

Sinting Babe: correct lor..go Town bo jio me lor..hmph..keke..miss ya!!..

...beauty exposed ;

Saturday, October 30, 2004

finding myself waking up lyk 10.30am IS a very amazing thing fer me..especially when i reach home at 5am last nite..whaha..piangz..dunno y..i cant slp after my family talked loudly..pek cek..nevamind la..dun slp oso can..enjoy a nice morning..alrighty..this goes out to those who noe wat happen to me on Friday aka last nite..whaha..u noe who u are~~...keke..

i received a happy msg frm cindy babe yday..haha..cuz she can go visiting lei..so happy fer her..she initially had to wait 10 days lor..before she can see her "lala"..but she can see this week liao..so happy fer her..keke..HOR BABE~?!..alrighty..

last nite..was fantastic!..haha..i definitely enjoy myself!..i got so excited tt i prepared myself lyk 1 hr ahead lor..whaha..not kua zhang ok..cuz i really tk 1 hr to prepare de..whaha..told my mummy i'm not having dinnner, cuz i'm heading out..my fwen told me to wait at home and will try to pick me up by 5.30pm..but came at 6 plus..its ok la..traffic lei..keke..very fast liao..reach my place in 20-25 mins lei..keke..reach oredi, i said my byes to my family..cuz my bro and charcoal was ard!..haha..mummy still ask my bro to send me to wherever i wanna go..but i say "no nid, got ppl come fetch me"..keke..think they saw my fwen ba..or they din?..i dunno..cuz my fwen park behind de..when i lock the door, i headed downstairs and i saw my fwen rite downstairs..haha..so happy!!...miss my fwen la..so, we chatted while headed to the car..den we head to town le..alot of cars sia..traffic abit slow..but still alright la..decided to go P.S...and makan and watch movie...ok peeps, how u pronounce "Cellular"???..i had lyk difficulty pronouncing lor..but i noe how le la..haha..we asked the ticketing gal..so paiseh when my fwen asked..piangz..decided to watch a 9.30 show and head to dinner..ended up going Mos burger to eat..dere..sushi..(not nice)..no Fish & Co..so..eat tt lor..after tt, we window shopped..haha..had fun la..keke..saw alot of stuffs tt i might wanna buy..but my fwen bought 2 cds..so kiasu..wa liu..den headed back to the car to put the stuffs..den find a place to sit and talk..talk till 9.30, we go watch show le lor..not bad la..not say very nice but not bad la..its jus this family, the dad video something bad..and its regarding Bad Cops de la..den this handsome guy pick up a phonecall frm a lady who has been kidnapped..abit of science lei..cuz the phone lyk kana smashed liao..but still got ringing tone..den this lady go wire here and dere..den can ring liao..so funny..if its me..i think i sit dere and cry and rot ar..haha..kidding..after the show, i called Patsy..cuz she's in town ma..but i told her i left the place liao..in the end, we headed back to town again after passing by parklane..wa lau..waste petrol..haha..

we parked opposite Cineleisure den we walked to Rouge bar lor..wanted to go in..but realize nid a chop den can go in..den bo bian, call the cha bor lor..called so many times, neva pick up..but in the end, she did la..den she came out..and we hugged!!..awww...i miss her lei..so long neva see her..my little darling okae..keke..wanted to intro her to my fwen but my fwen was on da phone..so we chatted while waiting..we haf a couple of activities coming up den we cant wait!..haha..wanted to see Janey babe lei..but she high liao..den cannot lor..haiz..she everytime go drink, everytime sure high one..once again..haha..after my fwen got off the phone, i intro lor..hahaha...den i intro patsy as my little darling..den patsy told my fwen she is my hao jie mei!..yea yea!!..haaha..after tt, we left liao..we headed to Coffee Club..still go back to the place to enjoy..hee..i ordered a Passionade, my fwen ordered Iced Coffee cuz sleepy la..eyes can tell lor..haiz..and ordered Mud Pie..wa lau..superb sia the Mud Pie..nice nice..i think i saw mati la..when i walked in..but she lyk bo chup me..so..nevamind lor..in the end ar, i drink lyk only 1/4 of my drink lei..cuz the Iced Coffee not nice fer my fwen..den i exchange lor..i drink tt lor..in the end, its me tt cant slp..whahaahaha...not say very nice la...but i drink coffee in Starbucks de lei..haha..its pays off sia..i noe how to drink coffee hor..somemore is Black Iced Coffee okae...*proud*..keke..we left at abt 1 plus la..den i dunno where to go liao..ended up at novena area...fwen go pump petrol..realized its Full Tank..wa lau..rich rich..i saw 63 bucks..wa lau..keke..if me, sure squeeze my money dry sia..but heng i not driving..keke..wanted to look fer another fwen but i dun wan la..do nothing but play cards lei..den i say i dun wan lor..in the end, headed to Changi Beach lor..near my hse ma..we walked to the toilet lei..den ar..when i come out, got 2 policemen..blardy hell..the chinese policeman look at me lyk some kinda criminal lidat lei!..so tulanz loR!...den the policemen walk to the guys toilet and see see look look..piangz..tulan..i "gin" the policeman..hahaha..den i complain to my fwen..keke..we walked quite far lei..haha..no la..a distance la..den we stopped and stand up to chat lor..the sky was perfect..got stars..got moon..den got aeroplane!!..so happy!..very loud la..but i love planes..keke..love to sit oso lor..hee..i think i should go try out the Air Stewardess..my childhood dream lei..maybe i should..we chatted lyk fer 2 hrs..dunno lei..jus keep chatting and chatting..playing and playing..so nice..keke..we left at abt 4 plus la..but i reach home at 5..we said our byes and left le lor..show my fwen jumbo..keeke..

den here i am noW!!..blogging!..keke..today..should be no plans ba..dunno going out anot..no one msg me lei..keke..i abit tired lei..but cant slp..xianz..jumbo is slping wit her head outside the basket..piangz..i more tired den her lor..haiz..keke..suddenly miss my fwen..haha..but maybe miting tml la..hee...see how..alrighty!..tk care all!!..keke...

Cindy Babe: muz be happy rite..whaha..so happy fer u..hope u'll enjoy urself ya!..keke..

Patsy Babe: so so so happy to see u...really..very happy..i missed you so much!..so glad!..keke..hope to see you again ya..keke..we should catch up liao..keke..hear frm u again!..muacks!..

Peeps: tk care all..keke..wan see jumbo, let me noe kae..whaha..but muz rem to let go hor..haha...kidding..alrighty...

chao dudes and dudettes!!...

...beauty exposed ;

Friday, October 29, 2004

YES!...friday has finally arrived..whaha..i'm so happy..keke..i can go out..keke..gonna eat Fish & Chips at Fish & Co, sushi at dunno where yet..and gonna catch the movie Cellular..yay!..i cant wait fer the time to come!..keke..gonna go out in the late noon, mit my fwen and ta-dah~!..my activities start le!..yay!..keke..fwen called me and say will call me after everything is done, will mit ard 5 plus- 6pm..yay!..i'm so happy!..haha..i think only some babes noe why..HOR BABES!??..keke..*oops*...*wink wink*..

well, today has been a happy day too..cuz Sinting came my place after her work to see Jumbo!..she even had dinner at my place..keke..so long neva see her..supposed to mit cindy babe to go to a warehouse sale frm Loreal and BodyShop..but it'll close by the time i mit Sinting..so i couldnt mit her lor..paiseh babe..i wanna go la..keke..anyway, when Sin saw Jumbo, she said jumbo so cute and blur..haha..she took so many photos of Jumbo..even video her..haha..we asked chewling to come..ask her to tk 518 from P.S to my place..but she dun wan lei..haiz..in the end, Sin jus took foto lor..and will show chewling..keke..jumbo was biting Sin's clothes..keke..so cute..Sin was whining to me..haha..cuz jumbo bite her watch, hand, skirt, clothes..think the toes too..haha..Sin left at 10 lidat..i accompany her to my place opposite e Posbank..she transfer money la..den i accompany her lor..walk and walk..she decided to show me where she dyed her hair..PIANGZ~..walk one big round lor..only to find out tt the shop close down liao..wa lau eh...walk one end to another..haha..but we had fun la..i keep telling her i decided to go Storm and dye la..but she say she bu gan yuan cuz she cant find the place..den she die die wanna find..piangz..bo bian..walk lor..find lor..den the shop close down..*diao~*..wat the hell..keke..den we headed back to my place dere, accompany tk cab lor..den i called my fwen..chatted awhile lor..patsy called me too..chatted wit her..so long neva talk to her le..*happy happy*..hee..
Patsy babe: you tk good care of urself kae..dun smoke so much la..control abit..u can de la..dun tired or stress den smoke, its not gonna help anyway..kae..tk care la..will see you soon ya..cant wait lei..i wanna go drink, sing, eat Fruits Fondue, go coffee club, do stupid things lei..keke..oki oki?..haha..kidding..

anyway, i'm heading to slp soon le..cuz i cant wait fer tml!!...whaha..read frm my fwen's blog..abt dreams..hmm...work hard fer your dreams?..live to your dreams?..dunno lei..so hard lei..keke..no comments la..but its well said..maybe u peeps can tk a look at my fwen's blog..www.tumbear.blogspot.com..oki doks..missed alot of my fwenz..so long neva see them le..dudes and dudettes, i no work lei..call me out lo..i very fwee lei..keke..oki oki?..haha..alrighty, i'm gonna hit the sack liao..since Jumbo is slping soundly now, i oso wanna slp le..tired..tk care all..chao!!..cheerS!!...

...beauty exposed ;

Thursday, October 28, 2004

ahhhh~~..nothing beats but 2 cuppas Fruit Punch, snacks, and songs..keke..ktv session wit the babes were great..keke..had fun wit the babes..had to start the ball rolling by singing Stephanie's Sun song..haha..as usual..keke..sang a couple of songs..i rest liao..hee..cindy babe sang 1st..followed by eve babe..sang alot lei..all the oldies song sia..haha..cindy sang huang pin yuan song..so long ago one..hee..this time, me no Step Sun concert ok..now is VARIETY of songs ok..keke..no joke lor..sang songs frm Ah Mei, S.H.E, Karen Mok, Jolin Tsai..etc..variety rite?..ya la..even sang some guy songs hor..though not nice la..aiyah..heck la..jus sing..tt's y its call ktv rite..keke..

was kinda worried abt jumbo..but when i got home, she's alright..ran to me when i opened the door..so cute..but only to find out tt she poo-ed in the living room and pee-ed in the kitchen (sala place)..so..dere i go again, whacking her hard on her butt..now she's happily playing wit her toys..haiz..keke..

tml thursday liao..YAY!!!...cant wait till fri!!..faster ar!!..keke..counting down my days to friday..faster la..keke..alrighty la..nothing much happen today anyway..cindy got so happy when her phone started ringing at 10 plus..same goes to evelyn..she received her call at 9 plus..keke..see dem happy happy..keke..

ok la..nothing much la..chatting wit ric on the msn now..nothing much to update anyway..tk care all..weather's crazy nowadays..sianz..friday faster come..cant wait..keke..oops..alrighty, chao all!!..

...beauty exposed ;

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

ARGH~..i'm tired..aiyoh..tired tired tired...been slping late and waking up early..jus fer tt pup..aiyoh..she's been waking up at 6am (i dunno why!!) and i've to wake up too cuz she nids to be fed and do her biz..gosh..her poo is super smelly..lyk..u can smell it in any corner of the hse..piangz..i've been spanking her butt very hard..(cannot soft hearted, she's really notty!!)..whack her butt hard and shout at her..i suddenly realize Charcoal is a betta tamed and trained dog back den..now..wa lau..her skin at her butt lyk very thick lidat..no matter how i spank, sometimes her tail will jus wag..make me tulan sia..keke..i've got a few more scratches liao..wa lau..very painful..finally got my mummy to cut her sharp nails..how we wished we could do something to her razor sharp teeth..she's been biting anything tt gets in handy..my god..someone help~..aiyoh..everyday, i'm looking forward to my mummy returning home..only den i can rest well..mummy kinda tk over me..she aint fierce over jumbo..think only me and my bro fierce..but she still soooo notty~~!!!..whenever i put her in the kitchen, she'll start her howlings, barkings, whinings..oh my god..hard time fer me to slp manz..piangz..someone train this dog!..keke..alrighty..guess tt's much abt her..

yesterday supposed to publish my entry de..but dunno y blogger has been abt laggy..den cannot lor..no choice..computer hang oso..piangz..had a great chat wit riccado yday..haha..realize tt he's such a sweet guy!..oh my!..1st time hearing a guy saying this kinda stuffs!..so sweet!..hmm..a guy who's chi qing towards his love of his life lidat..so sweet~..aww...Ric..u're such a sweet guy..walk one step, count one step kae..yar..yday chatted wit u liao..had a nice chat wit ya..tk good care kae..and the yr baby too!..haha...see ya!..

anyway, looking forward to tonight's ktv session wit the babes!haha..yay..abit of something entertaining besides jumbo..keke..oops..got a call today at 7am lidat..talked fer awhile..den i head back to slp le..den ard 10 plus, i got a call frm HIM..scare me lei..i tot anything happen..i pick up, no one answer..wa lau..and i could hear keyboard sounds..lyk someone typing..piangz..muz be accidentally call wrong liao..upset lei..i "hello hello"..no one answer, i put down liao..den i msg HIM, say HE accidentally call me..lidat lor..cant wait fer friday to come..only den i can go out!..wit my fwen!..faster come..cant wait le!..gonna haf sushi, fish & chips..yum yum!..can catch the show Cellular..keke..yay!..dog jus pee-ed..gotta spank her again..*goes to spank her hard*..
alright..back..such a notty pup..think tt's all abt it la..cant wait fer tonight's ktv and fri!!..keke..

Janey babe: yupz!..beagle pup!..her name's Jumbo..she got big and flappy ears la..keke..hmm..love to brg her out but she cant..she hasnt receive her last vaccination..cannot brg her out, in case of virus..aiyoh..u drive to my place lor..keke..near near nia..hee..but muz let go of her when u wanna leave ya..haha..cannot dun bear one hor..keke..kidding..good luck fer ur exams ya!..c ya soon!..

Cindy babe: hey babe..i wanna help u wit the tagboard..but i oso dunno how eh..is my fwen help me do de..keke..i ask fer u kae?got another fwen using the same tagboard as you de..kae?..cant wait fer the ktv session!!..haha..

PeePs: take care all..weather hasnt been very good..rain, shine, rain, shine..wa lau..keke..dun fall sick ya!..hope to c you all ard some time!..miss ya all!..

CHao all!!...

...beauty exposed ;

Monday, October 25, 2004

ok peeps..sometimes, u muz be mentally prepared before buying a pup..1st: be prepared to be a 24 hr nanny..2nd: be prepared for sleepless nites, 3rd: be prepared to get bitten, poo-ed, pee-ed, anything..
argh~..my pup's driving my nuts..she's been biting the whole day..hmm..ok..wat she bite?..wa lau..she can bite my socks, shoes, shoelaces, dustbin, HSE TELEPHONE LINE, carpet, anyone's toes, fingers (she ripped a tiny weenie bit of skin frm my finger), jus anything!..she can bite anything!..oh my gosh...she's nutsy!!..i've been slapping her butt hard enuff fer her to realize she's in the wrong..yea..she noes now..slightly betta wit the pee-ing and poo-ing..but still a long way to go..she's so notty..everytime i slap her if she pee the wrong place, i'll brg her to the correct place to pee, she come out wit this ultimate super duper cute face tt makes u feel guilty tt u slap her man..or sometimes, she'll jus run off in a jiffy and i've to grab her tight..argh~..keke..she's super gong when it comes to her food..she dun even noe when she's full and jus gobble watever she sees!..even water!..den her stomach will look so bloated!..super gong until her own paws are in the water..but she looks super cute when she runs cuz of her big flappy ears..by the way, her name is Jumbo..haha..was calling her Raisin but she looks lyk an elephant wit the flappy ears la..haha..so we decided to call her Jumbo..she slept wit me last nite..super cute..jus lyk a baby..whine here, whine dere..move here, move dere..i had to coax her to slp..argh~..super baby..haha..i haven slept well fer the nite manz..i hope she gets betta as i'm by her side..haha..this is the nightmare u'll get when u buy a new pup..hee..but its alright..here's to my dad and mum fer buying this pup fer me..keke..*cheers mum and dad!*..this pup will be the new darling in da hse..keke..she's cuddling herself up now to slp..beside me..adorable darling..
no plans fer this week manz..until fri..whaha..gotta stay home and jaga this pup..buay tahan..keke..my bro and his fiance were jealous over my dog..cuz she's super cute..haha..they wanted to exchange charcoal wit jumbo..haha..no way manz..hee..muz quickly tk pix of her b4 she turns slightly bigger in size..alrighty, got an invitation to anson's hse by louis to play mahjong...i love to go ar..but jumbo is nuts..so paiseh..cant go out la..hee..hafta jaga..paiseh guys..keke..when she's betta, i sure pei u all play..got a msg frm a fwen in the morning at 7am..was half awake la..but din go see..den i got a msg frm HIM at 10 lidat..i think so?..glad to noe HE's fine..will pray fer HIS safety and everything..so..okae la..tt's abt it la..keke..

Cindy babe: hey babe..dere's owaes pros and cons to being attached and being single..so..think twice kae..or thrice?or..haha..kidding..no la..but..think properly lor..okae?its ur decision, its ur choice..dun regret it can le..you've tons of fwenz ard u..lyk me, eve, me, eve..oops..keke..we'll be dere to gif u the support..rite eve?..hee..glad tt u feel alright towards "sony..aiwa..toshiba.." relationship..dun worry kae..jus lyk wat eve says..wats him fer u..u're a princess lei..keke..no worries kae..remember ar..24 hr hotline ar..keke...tk good care dearest princess..haha..love ya babe..

Eve babe: argh~..wanna go sing la..hee..we'll wait fer princess cindy ya..keke..tk gd care of urself babe..dun work work work la..keke..will see you soon?..kae?..i noe u sure more anxious fer the weekend to come de..hor~..hee..but i thick skin abit..haha..love ya babe..

Patsy babe: wish you all the very best to yr exams..tk good care of urself kae..i'll see you very soon..dun stress up kae..u can de..jus do yr very best..will be praying fer u..dun fall sick kae..weather aint good nowadays..kae?..love ya babe..

Janey babe: hey babe..long time no see le..where alley bar, indo chine..keke..where fruits fondue?..keke..my gosh..we're lyk pigs..anyway, u muz be busy preparing fer ur exams..good luck kae..all the very best..will pray fer u too.. :) gam ba te..you can do it de..will see you very soon ya..tk good care..love ya babe..

Sinting babe: okae..i betta type something fer you if not you say i neva type any msgs fer you..whha..kidding la..are u getting betta?pls pls go see a different doctor wit a betta prescription for ur sickness can..this cant go on fer 1 mth de..1 mth liao rite..go see a different doc..and rest ur body well..heart pain pain lei..see u lidat..kae?..tk good care can..see you soon ya..love ya babe..

All peeps: whoever you are..take good care of urselfs..weather aint good nowadays..keep warm peeps..keke..mit up soon or whenever u're bored..i'm free..no job..nothing..keke..my fone..will wait fer msgs..haha..wat sia..keke..alrighty, tk care all!..*smilez*

...beauty exposed ;

well..its another brand new week again..so..let me update u peeps where i've been...

Sat: supposed to go out in the noon..ended up going out at 1145pm..my god..well..i woke up at 3 plus in the noon..watched some tv..msg a few peeps..den stare at the tv liao..all the way..so boring..was waiting fer my fwen's call..haiz..chatted wit cindy on msn awhile..she oso din wanna go out..cuz she said the weather was good..haha..i agree la..but i've oredi agreed to mit my fwen..by evening, mum went to buy dinner..even they oso dun feel lyk going out..so she bought some food back..i received a msg frm ah tiong..asking me if i wanna play mahjong at felix's place..mahjong again..piangz..i din wanna play la..play not sian mehz..damn xian lor..so..i told tiong i dun wanna play..den..watched tv again..still waiting fer fwen's call..damn..watched tv in my mum's room until i fall aslp sia..until abt 11.30..i got call liao..ask me to prepare, come fetch me..haiz..den bo bian lor..go change den wait lor..met up oredi, dunno where i going..till i find myself familiar..i going tanjong rhu..piangz..of all places..tt place...tt was the place i hug HIM lor..on the bridge somemore lor..but..in the end, we still walked to the place..den raining..*spoiler*..bo bian..gotta change plan..go watch movie..at P.S..argh!!!...i watch a R21 show!!!...kinda RA lei...the show is -Sex Is Zero-..its damn funny lor..got sex scenes, and those porn stuffs..haha..so paiseh..all the sex stuffs..wa lau eh..keke..after the show abt 3.40am liao..den..dun intend to go home so early lor..so we went opposite clarke quay dere to sit and chat..walk frm the Asian Civilization Musuem all the way to Fullerton dere..the bridge..cannot sit..so stand up and chat lor..chat until abt 5 plus..left le..cuz driver will tired ma..den go home lor..scary man the ride..fwen's eyes wanna close lidat..den i keep pinching my fwen lor..hee..until i reach home..but..in the end, both safe la..haha..

Sun: woke up at 3 plus..so tired..guess wat..keke..bought myself a pup..haha..Beagle pup..super duper cute..no doubt abt it..it's a female pup, 3 mths old..so cute..caught my attention..after much, i jus buy le..not i buy la..my dad paid fer it..costs $688..really cute..so peeps, if u wanna see my pup, tell me kae..cuz i sure welcome u all de..its really cute..come see before it gets bigger..hee..went wit my bro, his fiance, my parents..buay tahan..everyone was taking turns to carry her..she's so cute!..haha..reach home, she ran here and dere..make hersself at home..wit charcoal somemore..she not scared..charcoal was scared..haha..was thinking of her name..haha..at 1st, tot of Raisin..cuz she's a Tri Color dog..beginning call her dat..den find it weird weird de...in the end, we change to Jumbo..cuz she has big and flappy ears..haha..she ran, ate, ran, sit, pee, poo..oh my god..here comes the nightmare..hee..but no worries la..it'll be ok in a awhile..she slp lyk a baby..so cute..all cuddle up..she keep waking up la..keep whining..think she miss her sista back in the cage..i had to coax her to slp..and now, she's slping soundly on the sofa..haha..had a chat wit my fwen jus now..by the way, HE was in an accident..haiz..got so worried for HIM..called HIM immediately when i knew abt it..asked if HE was ok..HE said ya, HE's ok, jus got scratched in HIS legs..my god..i was so worried lor..den..after hearing much tt HE's ok, i decided to hang up le..and only to hear tt HIS background voices are girls..haiz...can i not think otherwise..who wouldnt..haiz..all i could do was to keep sighing..i guess HIS options are indeed open le..open until big big le..army..money..haiz......reasons?..wat else can i do...wat else am i left wit?..nothing but big time hurt..dun hurt anymore girls le..dun bring em up and thrown em down..u dunno how pain it is...if you can accept another one, not thinking abt army, money or family problems, wat am i to u lidat..haiz..if you can accept another one, wats the point of the pact..dun lie le..jus tell me u dun love me at all..i will accept de..i remember u telling me never to lie to u..if not, u wun forgive me..haiz..wats the point of bringing back everything rite..you dun care anymore le..is this wat u do to every girl in your life?..hurt em big time and jus let go in awhile?..i dunno..you're a confusing person..maybe this was wat happened to me a yr back..and i din even realize it..haiz..i wish i dun think otherwise..remember wat i msg u..one day, u'll noe how it really taste lyk..i hope u're fine frm ur accident..i was really worried abt u..but..wats the point..worry oso lidat..dun worry oso lidat...haiz~..[dun assume and presume..]..disappointed..

...beauty exposed ;

Saturday, October 23, 2004

YEA!!!..i got my results!!..i got it!!..i P-A-S-S-E-D!!!...yes!!for once in my life, i no nid to tk supp paper okae...MTM: B, CET: B, TCS: B, LCD: B, FYP: C..wa lau...neva get such good grades in my life!!..this is the first time!!...and the comments was : Passed. Completed course of Diploma in Microelectronics...wa lau!!!...happy lyk hell!!!...i'm out of TP!!..i'm out!!...well, actually kinda sadz..keke..no more school..no more taking bus 8 to school..argh...heart sour sour de..upon hearing some of my classmates going into the army in dec, my heart oso sour sour de...lyk..will miss dem...haiz...army..wat the hell...keke..all my fwenz in class passed..basically everyone in my group passed..so happy fer everyone..no one has to study fer supp paper..*happy*..i was pouncing up and down in my hse..until i decided to wake my mum up..i told her i passed my exams and get all B's..she was happy fer me..tho she was abit blur frm her slp..i waited anxiously fer my dad to come home..yes!..finally when he reach home at 550pm, i immediately pull him to my computer and see my results..he was delighted..he sat down, looking carefully at my results..haha..he was saying "good good...all B..good good..clever girl.."..was so happy..i kept pouncing ard..HE was the 1st i msg to..dunno y..but i jus msg HIM..1st...keke..lastly, i msg my bro and sis..both say "good"..so happy..keke..YEA!!!..my parents gave me extra money..haha..somemore my dad wanna brg me out to eat..someday..keke..he say he treat me..haha..anything i wan..keke..YAY!..but my stomach aint good ar..ah doi...i'm so happy..

..was supposed to mit up wit guowei and the guys at 630pm at marina bay for steamboat..but..i ended up meeting cindy instead..long time no see her ma..so..mit her awhile lor..i meet her 645pm at cityhall..and we headed to Cafe Cartel to eat..after tt, i heard frm her the guys are coming..robin and ric..in the end...cray and ric turned up..and cray told me "HE's coming"..my gosh..my heart was pounding..i was asking to myself.."shld i go?shld i stay?"..cindy told me to stay, and dun feel funny..in the end, HE came..my heart was pounding lyk hell..but i was happy to see HIM..we went some jap restaurant fer the guys to eat their dinner..after tt, we shoppped ard..while waiting fer robin..was feeling weird tho..seriously weird..lyk..u noe..u see ur ex bf and yet..pretend lyk i noe u fer the 1st day..we din even chat much..lyk..maybe less den 10 sentences?..my gosh..well..maybe HE felt weird too ba..anyway..ard 945, i couldnt tahan anymore le..i left my classmates..i walked..walk to esplanade..raining..blardy hell..drenched..argh..i jus walked..while msging HIM...damn the rain manz...ah bo i can sit at the theatre by the bay liao..neh neh...rain so heavy..at ard 11 plus..i went to mit my classmates again...argh!..i got lost..can u believe it..i got lost at suntec..stupid renovation near marche dere..cant walk to find dem..i called robin and told him i'm lost..he laffed at me..grrr..keke..den he say wait where i am and he will send someone to find me..in the end, cray came..
irritating..walk and walk..both of us got lost..keke..walk to Cafe Cartel..den turn back..walk one big round...to Lavazza..neh neh..took us abt 10 mins to reach..when we reach, they were making fun of us..louis was shouting "oei..why so long sia..both go do wat sia.."..i was lyk..........speechless..complained to robin tt he got lost too..keke..den..they decided to go makan at a place where robin suggested..so..ok la..all of us started to walk..in the rain...argh..damn rain!..will not stop..i was drenched..when we reach, robin stare blankly at a renovated area and said "it WAS here before"..haha...no more liao la..the place..den we changed lor..go to the kopitiam nex to Allson hotel..haha..so cute..i neva eat..cuz my stomach..so..i jus drank..they all ate..so long fer the guys to decide..keke..after eating, robin called uncle teng..so..off we went to tk cab..i share wit louis..he looked very tired sia..we chatted awhile in the cab..cuz..i was talking to uncle teng..piangz..he was the cab driver tt i knew lyk 4 yrs ago lor...when i was working in Black Tea Box lor..i asked him if he remembered Delvis..he said sound familiar..and he knew who liao..piangz...so coincedental!...keke..after awhile, i chatted back wit louis..
i stopped at my hse bus-stop..den uncle teng say "i got send u home before..u owaes stop at the bus-stop"..i agreed wit him lor..keke..well..said my good byes to louis and i walked home..under the rain..argh..louis called me when he reached home..ask me if i'm home oredi..such a sweet guy..keke..and..we kinda chatted awhile..he was asking me to eat, tk good care..some stuffs abt my life..things tt happened..so sweet..i thank him..fer the concern he gave..really..such a sweet guy..keke..no joke la..keke..anyway..my bro and his fiance came..talked alot abt dogs..keke..i wanna buy a dog!!..they stayed fer abt 30 mins..den they left..i saw Charcoal!..my dog!..keke..played wit him awhile..den started talking to my bro and his fiance..haiz..so happy to see them both lidat..8 yrs of relationship..through school, through army, through work..they're still together..so strong and loving..i envy them so much..they've been through so much..8 yrs together..and now, they're engaged..gonna marry soon...y cant....haiz...here i go again...
shant talk much abt it..cuz i think HE oso wun bother le..say so much..msg so much..HE oso dun seem to do anything abt it..wat can i do..my heart..haiz...i've said everything i could le..still, i love HIM..shall end here le..chao all..nites...

...beauty exposed ;

Thursday, October 21, 2004

its been 7 days..since i last saw HIM..in fact, it was the last day i saw HIM, held HIS hands, kissed HIM, hugged HIM...i still remember...on this very day...we were at East Coast Lagoon, having dinner wit nigel and esther..at this very time, we were walking back to Macdonalds..holding hands, playing wit each other...still remember HE told me HE's getting bored, wanna find something to play..and we started playing...HE punch me, i punch HIM back, tickle HIM back..HE held me tightly in HIS arms while grabbing my head...even rested on HIS chest..sat down on the bench while waiting fer nigel and esther to walk by..chatted awhile on the bench and started heading to Macs again..at the bus-stop, waiting fer bus, heading to interchange together..i remember, when we reach Bedok, HE put HIS arms around me, while i rested on HIS chest and shoulder..and i kissed HIM on HIS cheeks..at the interchange, HIS bus came..tt was the last i kissed on HIS lips and said our goodbyes..tt was the last day i could kiss HIM, hug HIM, see HIM..
but..tt was 7 days ago...now, i'm all alone..no one to rest my head on, couldnt see HIM, couldnt hug HIM, couldnt kiss HIM, couldnt play stupid stuffs wit HIM, couldnt do anything wit HIM..anymore..argh...i miss HIM dearly..
i cant stop thinking of you..i'm still here fer you..i'm still around fer you..do you noe tt?..i'm still loving you the way i do since day 1..i'm still missing you the way i do since day 1..i'm still longing fer you the way i do since day 1..you noe ma?..you noe how much you mean to me ma?..you urself noe how much..you urself noe how much you mean to me..you noe de..
peeps, sorry for doing this..but i hope you all can understand..

patsy babe: i'm betta le..not so sick le..dun worry abt me..concentrate on your studies..look forward to see you..

buddy: dun work at your job le..it pains me to see you being treated lidat..you're someone with value..defend fer your ownself..there are other jobs betta fer you..

i noe you'll read my blog..look at every little word in my blog..the taskbar, wishlist, picture, my blog title..everything is fer you..only you..
you were my strength when i was weak..you were dere fer me when i was down..you were dere to make me smile..you were dere to brighten up my day..you were dere to share my happiness..you were dere to share my sorrows..you were dere when i laugh..you were dere when i cry..you were owaes dere fer me..gimme a chance..to be dere fer you..when you're down, let me cheer you up..when you feel everything is crushing down onto you, let me be ur shelter, let me hug you..when you feel everything is not going right fer you, let me comfort you..let me be dere for you..to share your happiness and your sorrows..your everything..gimme a chance to be dere whenever you nid me..i will still say it again..i love you..i meant wat i say, i say wat i meant..from the bottom of my heart, i do love you..yes!..i love you..

i dunno wat has happened to me..but..i guess i'm not in the wrong to express out how much i love HIM..you all out dere will understand how i feel..especially those who are in love..you noe who you are..you guys will understand..i guess..i've written alot..tt's much all..take care all..chao..

...beauty exposed ;

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

so sick today...in fact, very sick..woke up at 830am today cuz i was having bad stomachache..i went to get some painkillers and went back to lie on my bed..after abt 9am, i started to get dizzy..and i was having runs..cant stop going to the toilet..some kinda diarrhoea..i was getting even more giddy by den..was in so much pain..until i decided to call my mum..i told her i keep vomitting nothing but water..and keep heading to the toilet..she asked me to make some honey water but i wasnt of much strength..i was very weak..i was sitting in the living room when i suddenly feel lyk vomitting again..i grabbed a bag and started to vomit..again, water came out..nothing else..my mum called me again and told me she'll be coming home to see me..i said okae..dad came home at 10..by den, i was in my room..cuddling up and bearing the pain..he saw me and was sayang-ing my head..he told me to drink water, but i cant..cuz i will vomit out..he told me to watch tv outside and dun be in the room..i did as he told..after abt 15 mins, he went off..saying my mum will be back soon...soon after he left, my mum came home..i stand up, and i fell to the ground..i fainted in front of her..suddenly, i jus blank out..i found myself on the sofa..lying down and she was beside me..she asked me to drink honey water..i did..and she helped me massage my back after she bathed..i was feeling slightly betta..but was still kinda giddy..i wanted to cry so much cuz i was in so much pain..physical pain..

i msged HIM, telling HIM i fainted, vomitted, had diarrhoea..HE asked me izzit becuz i ate something wrong yesterday...but i din..i wanted to see HIM so much cuz i miss HIM very much..but i noe HE's working..after awhile, we msged abit..i din disturb HIM after much..HE needs to work..so..i rested while my mum was beside me..ard in the noon, i slept..all the way till 630pm..i was hoping HE would msg me and ask me how was i..but i was wrong..no msg frm HIM..maybe HE's busy or something..but..i was hoping HE would...i msged HIM at ard 7...HE din reply me at all..is HE really not caring fer me at all le?..isnt HE worried abt me?..

i miss HIM alot..keep thinking of HIM the whole day..was wishing HE could come and see me..i noe you'll read my blog..i miss you..i really do miss you alot..i was hoping you'll msg me..but you din..still loving you as much as before..i jus wan u to noe tt..i still care alot for you..many times these days, i wanted to go to ur place downstairs..but i din haf the courage to..cuz i dunno wat will your reaction be..i can only miss you so much and love you so much in my heart..

sorry peeps..i'm tired le..i'm really tired le..

...beauty exposed ;

1.24am..jus got home frm mahjong session wit the guys again..this time..i din lose..noe why?..cuz my base money was 41 and i was back to 41 at the end of the game..argh..how worse can it get..keke..but i had fun..thank the guys so much..keep asking me out eversince day 1 i met them..but..i wasnt quite in a mood tho..alrighty..here's abt today..

went to pasir ris to see some pups..and..it reminded me of one time,during SIP,we were so bored..robin brought us to see fish..fish farms..but..i held back my tears..and i jus miss him..this guy showed me the way to see the pups..and OH MY GOD..how can such pups not be bought?..they're so adorable!!..one pup..caught me eye..and tt is Beagle..its incredibly cute..the guy brought it out fer me, and the pup was so playful!..gnawed at my hand, my watch..so cute..keep pouncing here and dere,jumping here and dere..its an aussie breed..and they haf a mircochip in their neck..its to prove they're pure breeds...its really so adorable..and tt time,i wished he was dere..haiz..anway..when i ask abt the price, damn...$1600...my god...so expensive..but..i kinda expected it la..its expensive if the dog is not a local breed..so..we left the place, and my dad was saying he'll get me a pup..jus tt this pup is too ex..i agreed wit him..and decided to ask my brother fer a lobang..yea...my bro agreed...so..we left..head back to simei again..same old dogs..den we left the place..and i went to guowei's hse again..

waited fer wei downstairs..accompanied him to buy ciggy..den we sat down at his block..and started chatting..of cuz..chatted abt our studies, school, wat i'm gonna do next, future, army, HIM, our fwenz...alot..chatted till abt 9pm, we headed back to his home while waiting fer felix, tiong and eddie to arrive..those guys were so slow..ah doi..at abt 10pm, we started playing mahjong le..i actually msg HIM and ask if HE wanna play..can come join me and play..i dunno wat made me do tt..i jus had the sudden urge to msg HIM, asking HIM if he wanna play..but..in the end, HE din..HE was too tired frm his work..i msged HIM a good nite msg...but HE din reply..when i msg HIM again, i tot HE was "dao"..HE replied me..saying HE was sleeping..luckily i din disturb HIM frm his slp..den HE went to bathe and HE felt slightly refreshed..so, we chatted awhile..and..i told HIM..i dunno wat to msg HIM le..cuz its so diff not to say the things tt i wanna say..but instead, HE reply me saying tt HIS phone low batt, gonna charge phone, phone not by HIS side, good nite, slp early and tk care...haiz...no choice ba...wat can i do....

after the mahjong game, we left..i walked alone by myself while the 3 guys were behind me...once again, my tears got the betta of me..i cried again..sorry peeps..it reminded me of HIM, walking wit me, holding hands while heading to tk cab home..tt time, i could still hug and kiss HIM..now..i'm all alone..i cried again..while waiting fer cab, i cried again..the feeling was so different when i was in the cab...i've seldom taken a cab after i've known HIM..cuz HE will be dere to send me home..i took the PIE back home..argh..reminded me of HIM again..i'm in the car, with HIM by my side, and i can jus rest while my hand is on HIS lap while HE drives me home..i remember HIM telling me its the first time a girl puts her hand on HIS lap while HE drives..HE feels so comforted..after HE told me this, whenever i'm in the car, i'll do tt..my tears flowed..again..i had to tell the cab driver where to exit..and i owaes nid not say anything..cuz HE's dere..when i got home..i stopped at the bus-stop..i cried while i got off..i owaes get off in front of my hse..before i get off the car, we owaes hug and kiss our goodbyes..on each other's lips..and i'll tell HIM to drive carefully and be careful..i owaes tell HIM this till he remembers wat i owaes hafta say to HIM..and HE'll repeat after me..so cute..and HE'll be in HIS car, watch me, while i walk up to my hse..and i'll owaes wave goodbye to HIM, gif HIM a flying kiss as HE drives off..it reminded me of all tt...i miss HIM..and my heart and mind says i really do miss HIM alot..no doubt abt it..but..wat can i do..i can only miss and love HIM in my heart..i miss YOU..i really do...

Have you ever loved somebody so much

It makes you cry

Have you ever needed something so bad

You can't sleep at night

Have you ever tried to find the words

But they don't come out right

Have you ever been in love

Been in love so bad

You'd do anything to make them understand

Have you ever had someone steal your heart away

You'd give anything up to make them feel the same

Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart

But you don't know what to say

And you don't know where to start

Have you ever found the one

You've dreamed of all your life

You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes

Have you finally found the one you've given your whole heart to

Only to find that one won't give their heart to you

Have you ever closed your eyes and

Dreamed that they were there

And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, darling

What do I gotta say to get to your heart

To make you understand how I need you next to me

To make you understand how much I love you

To make you understand how much I miss you

My heart says I love you and there is no doubt at all

...beauty exposed ;

Monday, October 18, 2004

another day has passed..well, guess i'll be staying home fer these weeks..woke up today from a nightmare..i dreamt tt someone sat beside me, touched my face, and started to strangle me..i heard this person said "i really love you" to me..i wanted to move away, but something was pressing me..i couldnt move..i really felt someone sat beside me..cuz i could feel the pressure..jus lyk when someone sit's on yr bed, u could feel it..i saw him..but it wasnt him when it started to strangle me..it was him tt sat beside me,touching my face and saying he loves me to me..after tt, its not him anymore le..and this person started to strangle me..gosh..wat was happening..really a nightmare?..i was relieved at 1st..cuz i saw him, he told me he really loves me..i was so happy..but..when it turned out to be someone else when i was being strangled..argh..i couldnt move..really..something was pressing onto me..i woke up, shivering..but no one to tell to..wanted to call him..but..i din..i'm scared..haiz.........
...read frm janey's blog..jane babe, if u're reading this..jus wanna say thanks so much..u tk good care too ok?..hope to ya soon babe..anyway, my parents want to buy me a pup..but..i feel they're gonna waste their money..but..mummy insisted..haiz...love my parents to the max..
anyway, was supposed to go ktv wit the guys today..but..cancelled..cuz some wanted to go selegie, some wanted to go tamp, some anything..undecided..den cancel lor..erm..the guys are guowei,tiong,felix and eddie..really wanna thank felix so much fer accompanying me..he's been such a sweet guy..keke..woke up today, feeling betta and eating...came to realize i lost 3 kgs..shocked?..yea..trying to eat le..mummy scolded me..but..she understood why i became lidat..parents bot so much food and store at home..they scared i no food to eat..arghh...my parents!..found out tt my job on jobstreet.com is in process le..they've viewed my resume fer 2 times le..guess..it'll be the new start of my life le..rite?..yea..guess so..new start,new life..start afresh..my fwenz and buddies haf been great..love ya all..guess wat happened last nite..we chatted..yea..on da phone..i called him..and we chatted..at 1st, i was kinda *undescribable* feeling..was pausing often..but..soon as i said out my feelings..it got betta..my voice was shaky..yea..i was fighting back my tears..and i did it..we started chatting..soon after, somehow, i was brought back to the 1st time i chatted wit him on da phone..owaes talking back to one another in a funny way, i shoot u, u shoot me lidat..brought a smile onto my face..we chatted and din realize the time till abt 5am..we hang up..the last i said to him was "aye, i'm very happy talking to u"..and he replied "sa de"..well peeps, i miss his voice..so..dun blame me ok?..but..i fought back my tears le..i din cry yday..neva went to mit my classmates..cuz i think i shldnt be at the moment..but..i miss my classmates..some will be enlisting soon...and i miss dem!..i miss those crap guys!..keke..*oops*..i'm fine today..no worries..chatted wit felix in msn awhile..once again, thank u buddy..anyway, ..parents bringing me to see pups..*sweet*..so..tt's all fer now?..
__ ^* pARt 2 *^__
yea..jus got home frm simei..parents brought me to pet safari to see pups..really cute..mummy was telling me which pup cuter..argh..den..after tt, my parents went to buy kfc ice-cream and sat down..dere i go again..i broke down again..sudden tots of him came into my mind..yea, we went pet safari, passed by best denki, shopped alittle here and dere..together, holding hands, enjoying each other's company..den we met up wit my parents..exactly the place where my parents had their ice-cream jus now..i cried again..went to watsons jus now..stupid song "endless love"..make me tear again..i had no choice but to get out of the shop..suddenly miss him, miss his hugs, miss his kisses...so so much..haiz...but..i cant anymore le..haiz.....sighz....

_ *^ fAt ^*_ miss ya buddy..hope to c u soon..get well k..wanna see the lively u..muacks..
_^* pAt *^_prepare well fer exams..gonna gif u support & study hard..c you ard soon..muacks..

...beauty exposed ;

hi peeps...i'm back..firstly..let me apologise to my peeps..u noe who u are..sorry..fer making u guys so worried abt me..so sorry..secondly..i'm ok le..after 2 days of torment, a good fwen of mine came to find me..and really made me think alot..made me realize alot of things..u all can neva imagine wat this fwen has spoken to me..so..i'm kinda fine le..promised myself to show my parents tt i'm fine..i started to munch things today le..my mummy was so happy..she talked to me again today le..sitting by my side and chatted wit me..really touched..felix called me and ask me to go guowei hse fer mahjong..i agreed..since i haven seen tt bunch of fwenz fer a long time..i reach dere at ard 5 plus..i was the 1st to arrive..gosh..keke..waited fer them..soon..they reach..and we started playing..halfway through playing, guowei's computer started playing some songs tt made reminded me of him.."nothing's gonna change my love fer you", "it might be you", "if i aint got you"..i was forcing myself not to think of last time, we played mahjong together in guowei's hse..i fight back my tears..felix realized my eyes were watery..he asked tiong to pass tissue to me..and felix gave me a piece..*thank u buddy*..he signalled guowei to skip the song..and guowei did..after skipping, tiong suggested to go fer a smoke..i din..i stayed in the room..i cried..once again, my tears got the betta of me..felix comforted me..after awhile, i calmed myself down..i stopped crying..after playing 2 rounds, i lost 27 bucks to ah tiong..blardy hell..keep on -4 tai zi mo-, -5 tai zi mo-...keke..so shitty..i lost..damn..guowei lost all the base money..41 bucks..piangz..after tt, it was ard 11.15 le..i called dad, to fetch me home..he said ok..so..while waiting, we all gathered at the kitchen to smoke..and we started talking..all 3 of them were comforting me..guowei was telling me "he seems lyk a guy wit confidence"..even felix agreed..guowei was saying "maybe his pride and ego ba"..i jus shudder my shoulders..and he said "since if its pride and ego, he's not worth fer u.."..after wat he's said..i jus kept quiet and listened to wat he said..think wat they say might be true..its no big-a-deal..tt's wat guowei said to me..after chatting, my dad came..and i left...and here i am blogging.. :)
i realize..i haf peeps who cares fer me..and i've made them worry fer me..for 2 days..i tortured myself..i tortured my parents..peeps, dun worry abt me le..i'm kinda fine le..i noe wit the love and care frm u peeps, and my parents, i will grow strong..i've learnt my lesson, and i will learn it hard..nite peeps, love ya all..

__fat: thank u..so much..i'm kinda fine le..dun worry abt me le..muacks..miss you..love you lots..__
__pat: sorry..for yday..dun worry abt me le..muacks..prepare well fer ur exams k..miss you..love you lots..__

...beauty exposed ;

Saturday, October 16, 2004

reading frm sinting's blog, i controlled my tears again..thank you buddy..for owaes been dere fer me when i'm feeling devastated..yes, i'm devastated..this painful ordeal..has involved my parents..my daddy and my mummy..they were dere and they showered me wit love and care ever since i stepped into this world..they were dere to dry my tears and to do wat ever they can ever since i made my first cry..for once, i realize my parents can feel the same for me..for once, i realize they can understand my problems..peeps, do tell ur parents if u have problems..cuz u dunno how much love they show u is incredible..i couldnt breathe yday, couldnt slp yday..but i forced myself to..and yes, i finally slept after a day of "cant slp"..slept till abt 5am, he msg me he reach home..i replied him back..and we started msging each other again..my hp batt went low..and i went out to tk my charger..my daddy saw me, he ask me "u cant slp izzit"..i said i slept but wake up again..den i went into my room, plug in the charger and started to msg him again while i was squatting on the floor..my mummy came in, she told me daddy couldnt slp the whole nite and wanna ask me some stuffs cuz daddy dun understand why he stated this kinda reasons for a break-up..i nodded my head and she ask me to sit down on the floor..when my parents were in my room, mummy insisted not to switch on the lights..so, 3 of us sat on the floor and i slowly tell them everything..i was still msging him..talking halfway, something shocked me, made me heartbroken..daddy consoled me halfway and he patted my shoulder..while he patted, he suddenly burst out crying..he started to cry, mummy started to cry..i was so heartbroken!..i saw my parents cry in front of me..he said to me "u're my youngest child, and i only haf u..i see u suffer so much..it pains my heart so much.."at tt moment, i couldnt help but hold on to both of them and say "i'll be ok..dun worry abt me"..mummy said to me "i only haf u..u're my only one..mum see u lidat, i'm so xin tong"..i really felt lyk hugging them so tightly..after awhile, dad calmed down, mum calmed down..this time..i was the one tt started to cry..i din noe telling my mum abt this will cause them to be lidat..if i've known, i wouldnt haf told her..my mind was blank yday..i dunno wat to do..they talked to me till 6 plus..daddy told me "dun be afraid, u haf me and mama..anything u wan, anything u nid, tell us..we gif u..go find some place u wanna go, and daddy brg u dere"..mummy said "dun think of suicide, dun think of anything foolish..dun go and end ur life.."..i realized they noe how much pain i'm going through..i couldnt help but stare blankly and started tearing..i love my parents..after this incident, i promised myself i will tk gd care of dem and make sure nothing can harm them..i wan the best for my parents..this thing has haunted him..he is feeling guilty..but no matter how i try, i still cant haf the chance..i'm keeping my hopes high, tt i will be back wit him..2 yrs is gonna be the challenge for me..my buddies, thank you for all yr support..this is the worst ordeal i've ever come across..

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A Valentine is nothing like

A chocolate or a rose.

For in a week these shall be gone,

But Valentines remain.

If love were always sweet to tongue

Or fragrant to the nose,

Each day would be like Valentine's,

And we would go insane.

A Valentine just hangs around

Waiting to be kissed

Long after special days have passed

And every days are here.

So one is wise to choose me as a Valentine

As i'm hard to resist.

For in the midst of love

It's nice to have me near.

__this is wat he wrote to me when we were so much in love..& now, all's been forsaken..__

Fat: buddy..thank you so much..i really appreciate it..sorry, i made u tired by accompanying me..sorry i was pouring out everything to u..really am glad tt u're here wit me..thank u for everything..
Pat: sorry..my mood aint good when u msg me..i was crying..sorry..its really really painful and extremely hard..

...beauty exposed ;

hi all..its been a terrifying 2 days fer me..yes..frm my blog entry, guess u all noe wat has happened..nothing much to say..as all i feel now is jus crying..tried very hard to fight back my tears..i did it once but i couldnt do it the second time..guys out dere, treasure the one u love..treasure ur relationships..dun hurt ur loved ones so deeply..u'll dunno how painful it is..this aint easy fer me..dun hurt, dun lead..its something which will hurt ur loved ones..and here i am..being the one tt is terribly hurt..girls out dere, love him more everyday..cherish him everyday..tell him how much u love him before its too late..let him noe how much he means to u before its too late..this is wat i've going through now and i'll telling u all..it aint easy to swallow everything down to urself and u find tt no one can understand u but only u urself..girls, dun put ur whole heart, mind and soul in until u realize he is the one tt is gonna spend ur life wit..this is wat i've learnt..i did, and this is wat i got back ultimately..love hurts..truly hurts..my parents came to noe abt this..and i really broke down in front of my mummy..i ran to her and i jus broke down..she saw those tears in my eyes, all she could do was to stand by me..though she dunno how to console me, she still stood beside me and talked to me..showering me with all the care tt i nid..i'm gonna say this again even tho i've msged u..i noe u'll read my blog..i'm still deeply in love wit you, missing u so badly..i'm hoping tt someday, miracle will happen..i really love you..guys and girls, remember wat i say..u all dunno how much pain i'm going through now..

...beauty exposed ;

Friday, October 15, 2004

hello dear..how was your day?..

ask how was mine..

i cried and cried the whole nite..

jus because of your "thinking far"..

you meant good for me?..

and yet you've hurt me so deeply..

dun u realize it's so deep..

i couldnt even slp?..

my eyes are bloated, my tears ain't dry..

my head's spinning, my stomach's turning..

i feel lyk vommitting, i lost my appetite..

all thanks to your "thinking far"..

i find myself all alone on a brand new day..

i find myself thinking of you the whole nite..

i find myself trying to salvage things up..

but wats the use..all would be in vain..

all thanks to your "thinking far"..

you've made me suffer, you've torn me apart..

you've stabbed me hard and all you said was jus "sorry"..

wat you've thought for me was good, let me tell you..it aint good at all..

its complete torture, complete pain..

you brought me up to see the rainbow but you crush me down to hell wit your own hands..

we were happy the day before, and today you wan us separate..

i'm deeply wounded by you but all you said was "slowly ferget"..

all thanks to your "thinking far"..

...beauty exposed ;

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

*full full*..so full..keke..had a sumptuous dinner today..haha..met up wit my fwenz!!..so happy!!..keke..missed all their stupid and crappy jokes..keke..
poor riccado..gotta wait fer 1 hr fer me and louis..haha..all of us were told to mit 6pm-6.15pm at Katong Shopping Centre..end up, me and louis reach at 6.40pm..keke..everyone was practically late..includes my dear and robin and nigel..aiyoh..haha..so..we chatted, waited till 7.15pm..the guys came..headed down to the kopitiam and waited for nigel..abt 7.30pm, he came..so louis went to order whole chicken..half white chix, half roast chix..yum!!..keke..everyone ate all up..slurp slurp..yum yum..hee..den..they went out fer a smoke..while we were suggesting where to go next..yay..i've a free buffet dinner next mth..proudly sponsered by louis and riccado..keke..cuz they tk pay..wan treat us..haha..yay..hee..anyway, some were suggesting to go pub, some east coast..in the end, we settled down at Gelare Cafe at siglap..where evelyn babe works..she looks cute in the uniform and the cap..haha..she was surprised to see me coming into the store..haha..said our hi..and ordered ice cream!..all of them ordered waffles..keke..i couldnt finish my waffle..sad..cannot tahan wet wet waffles..hee..after tt, we sat dere awhile, and their manager came to chase us off..[alot of ppl ma..wanting to sit..]..somemore, we din order anything else liao..so..no choice..headed opposite kopitiam..order drinks again..wa lau..full lyk hell..stomach full of water..hee..sat dere...chatted with dem..laff alot..piangz..cannot tahan these ppl..whole life full of crappy stuffs..haha..at least, it wasnt boring tho..haha..after abt 10.30pm, we headed home..i reach tamp interchange at 11pm..dear accompany me to interchange..[thankew dear..muacks!]..we went our separate ways after tt..now..i'm waiting for "guess guess guess" show..haha..nothing to do liao..jus plain slacking..hee...anyway..was jus wondering to myself..do i really look tt ugly..haiz..well..tt's all for today folks!..chao!..
______^[nOtes fOr yA]^________
Pat: YO!..babe!...u M.I.A liao ar...only heard frm u on sat nia..keke..catch up soon ya!..
Fat: OI!..babe!!...where my ktv??!!!..HUH!!???....keke..
Dear: muacks!..muacks!..love you!..keke..

...beauty exposed ;

Monday, October 11, 2004

yay..finally feel tt i've recovered frm my sickness aka flu..keke..well..dere aint much to do today..so..will be a short one..erm..well..here it goes..

couldnt wake up early today to go school..wanted to go school at 12pm..but..ended up..waking up at 2pm..keke..dear called me at 1 odd..but..i jus couldnt help but going back to slp on my comfy bed..sick la..tired..was lazy..din wanna go school at all..haiz..go school collect report lor..anyway..IT LOOKS GOOD!..whaha..with the hardcover and golden printed words on it..cool!..keke..costs 13.45 bucks..oh well, it doesnt matter..hee..dear waited for me at the mushroom..when i reach, couldnt find him..tot could find him at the tables near Ultra Supplies..but..haha..nope..and he found me inside Ultra Supplies..haha..he said he was behind me all the while..i din even noe..keke..collected my report, headed to General Office..den..alamak...din noe i hafta brg a paper tt states our name and blah blah de..*ah doi*..gotta go back sch again before 15 Oct to hand in..*diao*..bo bian..took back my report, went to interchange to eat..suddenly these few days, i got craving for sushi and creamy stuffs..*fat*..in the end, i ended up at Tamp mall food court eat Beef noodles..nice..slurp!..after tt, me and dear headed back to my place and rested awhile..erm..i din rest..he did..keke..he slept..while i was online and hunting for jobs..hmmm..no progress today..what the heck..nevamind la..relac..cindy intro me a job..help couples file their marriages at R.O.M..but..when i talked to the person, it seems they wanted someone who can work long..well, i told him frankly tt i dunno if i'm able to..so..might as well, i dun work le lor..cuz i'm waiting for other jobs ma..this is jus a temp nia..so..haiz..i rejected le lor..[sorry cindy babe..]..got ready for dinner..den..he was still slping..guess he's really tired..din haf enuff slp these few days..so..i ate first..and woke him up after i've eaten..watched tv awhile..[Friends]..den he's now on his way home..keke..and i'm here blogging!..keke..nothing much liao..kinda getting bored of this life liao..was thinking of going on a holiday alone..but..haiz..cant..really wanna go on a holiday.. :(

...beauty exposed ;

Sunday, October 10, 2004

piangz..supposed to be in store at 10am today..but i caught flu since yday..DAMN!!..dunno wat happened to my aircon, shocked me when i saw the degree was 18..no wonder i sick la..[it used to be 23 deg]..gosh..was sneezing the whole day yday..so horrible..until now, still haven recover..shitty feeling..argh!..here's a recap of wat happened over the weekend..keke..

Friday: went to watch Exorcist lor..keke..with my dear and derek..EEK!!

Sat: actually din go out de..but fat msged me and ask if wanna mit cuz she's meeting her fwenz at tamp at 11pm..so..since i was bored, i met her fer dinner at Suntec..we shopped ard, had dinner at Swiss Culture..wa lau!..superb pasta!..keke..Swiss Chesse with seafood spaghetti..yum yum!!..even she was commenting it was nice..keke..after tt, we went to Delifrance to see her fwenz..last time worked in Rocky Master de..gif the manager the ta-bao food tt fat did fer her..den we went shopping!!..yay!!..we were lyk..2 'san-ba' ppl walking in and out of shops lor..hee..we went Carrefour..shopped for my necessities..bought new shampoo and conditioner..den we head to other shops and shop..saw some clothes tt were jus nice..but..i cant buy yet cuz i dunno wat kinda job i'll be having..so jus window shop..den we went U2..saw tops..selling 2 for 20 bucks..kinda nice..and we bought!!..haha..its a dark grey color..and we bought the same..keke..so..each person 10 la..den we went Topshop..i saw this bag..so nice..13 bucks only..its brown in color..nice lei..but come to think of it, why buy when dere's no sch le..damn..din buy lor..sadz..shopped ard the shop, nothing much, we left Suntec for tampines le..already ard 10 liao..we took the train..dunno y..i started to sneeze and sneeze..damn..feel so horrible..wanted to oink so much..we reach tamp at 10.45..so..i accompany her wait fer her fwenz at the bus interchange..haha..we chatted and chatted..so great to be chatting wit her and catching up..missed her so much since she started working and was busy everytime i wanna date her..haha..she's been a GREAT [u can say tt again!] pal to me since sec sch..keke..when her fwenz came, we said our goodbyes and i headed home..cannot tahan..stupid nose..argh..went home, took 2 pills and rest..while dear came to find me and stayed wit me for an hr..i guess he shldnt have come cuz he was tired himself...sorry dear..well, tt was the end of sat..

Sunday: woke up at 8.30am..i dunno why!!..called store up and told them i couldnt attend the meeting..christine said: "you whole life sick ar you"..i was lyk "huh!"..den i say "i'm down wit flu..cant come"..den she say "ok la..so..when you quitting?"..haha..smart sia..we chatted awhile..i told her i'll quit soon and will gif my resignation letter..feel so bad i couldnt attend..miss my starbucks fwenz so much..so..i went back to slp..[i tried] but to no avail..i cant slp anymore..so i spent my time watching the tv, jus plain resting..watched tv till 12, parents came home wit food fer me..great..stomach so hungry oso..after tt, i popped 2 pills, headed to slp..buay tahan..i slept all the way till 4.30..and here i am now blogging..nose still aint ok..damn..eddy msg me, telling me dere'll be a mahjong session today at 10 at guowei hse..well..i dunno if i can go..but i'll try...if not, paiseh ar guys..alrighty, i'm gonna tk my rest now..and rest all the way..keke..chao all!..enjoy ur last day of weekend!!..

...beauty exposed ;

Saturday, October 09, 2004

eek!!..went to watch Exorcist today at Great World..midnight show with my dear and derek..."In the name of the Father, of the Son and of the Holy Ghost, I Cast You Out!!"..keke..at first, it aint scary..but coming to the end, it started to get eerie..i was watching a 50 cent show again..[as usual..keke..]..not i scare to watch lei...its the sounds and music tt made me scared..really lor..dere was 1 part tt me and dear got shocked lor..piangz..showed abit of anti-christ de..ok la..not bad la..might haf a 2nd show to this..cuz..if dere's a beginning, dere shld be an end rite?..anyway..i think i'm gonna fall sick again..stupid flu..cause my throat to feel funny now..damn!..have been having sneezes during these few days..guess i haven been slping well..and drinking water..hate to when i'm having flu..blardy hell..sneeze here and dere..
After the show, we headed to my place 201 fer some prata, mee goreng and teh-peng..keke..not very nice la..but..wat the heck..was abit hungry too..supposed to go school today to collect my bound report..but..hee..din go..guess i'll go on monday..wa..today..i sent out alot of resumes..cant remember how many i send but..quite a few la..watever job i feel lyk..HR assistant, Facilities executive..blah blah..found one tt interest me..keke..when i saw the requirements: Diploma in Microelectronics, i was thrilled!!..keke..its a wafer fab company..looking for QC Engineering Assistant..i sent my resume tho'..dun care..jus send..my teacher called me too..telling me to send resume to him if i wanna work at a wafer fab company..some company start with C de..cant rem wat liao..as an Engineering Assistant..wa lau..*stress*..wanted to go fer the Retail Personnel at pacific plaza..1,800 per mth..piangz!!!..selling CD can earn so much de mehz..but i din call the person up..so..haiz......dun haf lor..i dun haf the heart to tell my manager in starbucks tt i wanna quit..haiz..worked dere fer abt 2 yrs..cant bear la..but..mostly all my fwenz dere quit le..sadz..guess..i shld la..go fer a betta pay job..den working 4.50 an hr..rite?..hee..anyway, throat feel shitty now..gonna get my forty winks le..hope i can slp..haven been slping well these few days..nite all..tk care!..chao!!
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Fat: so glad to bump into u today!..keke..dun worry too much abt ur job k..if cant tk it, quit ba..but..this is the kinda situations u'll face no matter where u go ba..hor..so..up to u lor..ok?..
Pat: paiseh..din mit u today..missed the Fruits Fondue..keke..c ya!..
Dear: so glad to see u today after 2 days..missed u noe..[u lei?keke..]..muacks!..

...beauty exposed ;

Thursday, October 07, 2004

well..i jus woke up after a 12 hr slp..shiok sia..luckily no nid to work..haha..anyway,went zouk yday wit pat and jane..couldnt reject pat anymore liao..keke..anyway, i met them at orchard at 9..they wanted to have dinner at Puncak..but close oredi so, we went beside Puncak..eek!!..their wanton not nice!..copy Puncak style but their wanton not nice de..bleah..keke..after tt, we headed to tk a bus down to zouk..was reluctant at 1st..thought of going home..but..on the other hand, go home oso nothing to do..might as well go la..keke..so..we 3 gals went..reach ard 10 plus plus ar..no queue sia..cuz still early ma..den check IC..damn bouncer!...check my IC twice and he was specifically looking at my pic in my IC and reality..irritating!..[btw, i jus had a haircut..hehe]..den nevamind..another bouncer [aka butch] check my pouch..aiyoh..so kapo noe..keke..den check ok liao..went in..no music yet..minute we 3 gals step in..got liao..whaha..look out for place and realize alot of ppl wearing white..[ghost festival?..whaha]..den found seats at a wall..damn..after awhile, they open up the curtains fer the restricted area..and everyone jus rush dere..so, we found a betta place where its looking down to the dance floor..
crowd starts coming in..music got louder..bass got lower..good..keke..pat's 7-11 fwenz came..few guys including benny, 2 butches, 2 gals..tt's all..not ripe wit them..so i was pretty quiet last nite..saw 1 "ba-pok"..funny dressing..wearing a white feather hat..haha..1 of pat's fwen said "aye..feather duster"..whaha..jane was high oredi..drank so much apple shooters..quite nice eh..keke..and bitter lemon drink..quite nice too..drank drank..puff puff...time passes quickly..dunno why they play retro songs ar..play properly la..play till "Guan-Tanah-Merah"..wat sia..how to dance to tt..piangz..den nevamind..play "Perhaps Perhaps Perhaps"..wat the hell!..how to dance!..whaha..only pat and jane were entertaining one another..den come entertatain me too..keke..funny..find those ppl on the dance floor funny..ppl were standing on the podium and they were dancing their own steps..they lyk machiam ACES day [those where u had in sec sch..rem?]..dance their own steps den ppl on the dance floor follow..so funny..couldnt help laffing..
i was surprised tt dear came to fetch me..cuz i tot i would be taking a cabbie home..*thanks dear!*..he msg me and tell me to wait fer him...keke..happy happy..jane high liao..pat's fwen oso drunk liao..see ppl puking..jane's chauffeur came and send her home..awww..haha..she sure looks high and tired..she jus slump into the car seat and her eyes are closed..hope she rests well for the nite..we send pat home..i was feeling abit uneasy liao..stomach turning..told dear i feel my stomach weird..he asked if i wanted to vomit..i say not now ba..den he say when u wan vomit tell me..i said ok..and he slowly drove me back home..din wanna fall aslp in the car cuz i dun wanna leave him driving alone..so..i opened my eyes all the way and chatted wit him..he asked if i was ok and i wanted to stop at petrol station..told him its ok..i got home at 3.30am..wa..tired and sleepy..waved goodbye to him while he was at the carpark, got myself a nice hot bath and dere i was..in lala-land fer 12 hrs..shiok..alrighty, tt's fer yday..no plans fer today..dear din say anything..so i guess..nothing la..keke..ok la..chao all!!tk care!..
______[~^nOTes fOr ya'^~]_______
Fat: get well soon ok..rem wat i say to u ya..tk care buddy!..
Pat: i enjoyed myself yday...tho i wasnt dancing..keke..
Dear: miss ya!..muacks!!..

...beauty exposed ;

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

hmmm..nice rite?...i really really lurrrvveee tulips..especially cream tulips...though white can be the subsitute..really lurrve tulips..keke..got this pic frm michie's blog..couldnt help but save this pix..too nice liao..wonder when will i be able to see these beautiful flowers blooming..i've received it before frm my dear [and he spend alot of $$ on it], but cant help getting more of it..keke..nice nice...keke..

...beauty exposed ;

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

slack slack slack..plain slack-ing..no job yet cuz lazy to find one..haha..jobs dun come flying down to u rite..muz find but i lazy now..hee..sleeping late at nites and waking up late has owaes been my thing..but..it ain't gonna continue lidat cuz i wan $$$!!!...needa earn for me and my family!!..and my future use!!..but..i relac 1st ar..hee..this semester is pretty hectic fer me..so, its time i relac 1st..den start my working life..cindy asked if i'm interested for a charity projects which earns 50-100 daily..haha..so cute..she really got the charity look..keke..chatted abit regarding jobs..both of us lazy to find too..juz wanna enjoy 1st..but we'll keep each other updated..same goes for evelyn..well, poor babe, got exam on sat..good luck gurl!!you can de!!..well, 3 of us will keep each other informed of jobs..maybe we can all work together-gether??..haha..hmmm..[tt'll be great!]..will keep ya 2 babes informed!!..keep me informed too ok?..well, woke up today in the morning..surprising huh..hee..nothing to do oso..really slack..dear went for an interview with nigel at taka..some starhub customer service thingy..good good..keke..not going ktv today..might go tml..so today, i dunno wat to do liao..xianz..wanna go shop shop oso bo cash..hee..all i noe now is slack..wanted very much to go on a trip/tour..but..haiz..dunno y he suddenly dun wanna go lidat liao..*disappointed*...was hoping i could sit aeroplane again..but..think no more liao la..he seems uninterested le..oh well..wat to do..i go alone???..siao..mummy will kill me..though she asked me abt my trip, i din say much to her..hmmm..sadz...ok la..time for my slacking liao..hee..watch tv, slack, watch tv, slack..fer these few days..while finding a job..keke..anyone got job intro intro hor..alrighty, chao all!!!..

...beauty exposed ;

well, today was my exams..can say i wasnt satisfied with wat i did..completely forgot how to do, ultimate tired today..cuz i slept at 5am..woke up at 8am..even did a careless mistake on mcq which the answer is so damn blardy obvious..how stupid can tt be..when i came out of the classroom, all of my fwenz were oredi out of the exam room..all gathered outside and discussed the answers..i din wanna talk abt it so i headed to the ladies and washed my eyes..i came out, only to see my dear standing ard them..needed him so much and when i leaned against the railing, he came forward and ask me abt my paper..i jus shook my head and told him i dunno how..he hugged me and i juz cried..he kept on hugging me, comforting me..he wanted to discuss the paper wit me but i told him i din write any answers down cuz i noe it'll be wrong..but in the end, i did..and i recalled the answers..tt's how i realized i did a stupid mistake in the mcq..dumb me..after which, headed down to Short Circuit for a drink, all ate, i drank..no mood to eat..too tired..was hafing a bad headache..some fwenz suggested playing lan games, while some suggested to play mahjong..[yes, again...mahjong]..in the end, some went home to get some slp, others went to play mahjong..nope, i din go..i went home to get my slp..dear went to nicholas's place with cray and louis..i was too tired and i headed home..one thing tt made me felt great was my dear told me "tonight we go catch a movie okay?"..i was happy and i nodded lor..-duh-...so, we agreed to watch a movie together..*awww*..hee..anyway, i reached home, bathed and immediately headed to my bed..cannot make it..tired plus headache..slept at 1.30pm, woke up at 5.30pm..and dear came to my place fer dinner..after tt, we headed to tamp mall and mit derek fer the movie...*White Chicks*..well, quite funny ar..stupid show tho..haha..now vanessa carlton's song is in my mind..hee..go catch it ar..fer some stupid laughters..show ended at ard 12 plus..dear and derek going to tk car den they go eat supper..i din tag along..cuz the journey for my dear to drive is long..[sending derek home..at thomson]..so, i decided not to tag along..they dropped me off at my place and headed back to dear's place to tk car..hmm..happy eating guys..oh well, i'm home again..wonder if i wanna get a job now or later..still considering..dear going fer interview at taka wit nigel..[good luck guys!]..at starhub..sme customer service..hee..alrighty, enough said liao..tired la..need to get some beauty slp..chao all!!
_________^[..liTtle nOteS fOr yOU...]^____________
Fat: dun angry le k?dun pissed le k?..everything will be ok..not ur fault..so dun worry ya..tk care..i'll see u soon ar..muacks..
Pat: dun work until u fall sick..u in nid of money oso no nid to harm ur health..u cant work with a sick body..tk good care my buddy..muacks..see ya..
Dear: muacks muacks!..good luck fer ur interview!..

...beauty exposed ;

Sunday, October 03, 2004

oh no..tml's my main exam!..and i dunno if i can anot..study finish oredi but i see the questions they ask, quite confusing..cham ar..hope i can scrape thru..hee..well, i din study today..or shld i say..revise..whaha..woke up at 4.45pm today..shiok sia..the weather..den...stone stone ard den headed out..needed to buy a calculator..anyway, i went to mit up wit terence, ryan and tiva (some indian guy aka their fwen)..dear says terence is my fling...mad..he's really not..he's juz a fwen of mine..so, no worries ok..i met them in town..but i went to buy my calculator 1st..spent 26 bucks on it..damn!..stupid someone who stole my calculator..damn u!!..haha..i went to kinokuniya to find those guys..found them sitting on the floor and reading..wat sia..whaha..walked past a book tt says "Biography of Orlando Bloom"..wa lau..handsome ar...handsome~~...hee..anyway, we headed to yoshinoya fer dinner..saw maia..singapore idol gal?..ya..she's pretty..but got loads of tattoos on her body..including her name maia..after tt, we headed to coffee club at orchard building..fer some drinks and desserts..we ordered mud pie and this plate of fruits wit choco dip...SINFUL!!..but really nice..i ordered Ice passion Tea..wit vanilla ice cream on top of it..nice nice..cost only 5.80..ok la..den we all chatted rubbish, say abt the ppl working dere...alot ar..i laff till pengs..den dear came to fetch me at 10.30..thanks dear!..actually i can go home myself but robin took my main paper and i cant revise..so dear help me get it frm him den he came to fetch me home..and here i am blogging..hee..anyway, i gotta go study and do some revision liao..if not, my dear will*blah blah blah* at me..no la..not so serious..hee..kidding..tk care everyone!!..
Fat: ktv ar..dun put me aeroplane ar..muacks muacks!
Pat: when will i see you........again...whahahha...go ktv k?..
Dear: muacks muacks!..

...beauty exposed ;

have u ever been so much in love..where u think u 2 will go on the journey together to the next phase in life?..well..i have..
have u ever been so much in love with tt someone..u feel u could do anything?..well..i have..
have u ever been so much in love u feel tt u could spend all ur time with tt someone, be it anywhere in the world?..well..i have..
to this someone in my life, you've brought me a step higher and brought me to see the rainbow..nothing seems to matter but juz plain you, you, you..spending time with you has owaes been my priority and till now, it still doesnt change..not only you've taught me things i din noe, you've oso taught me how to think further and to learn more..not only you've given me ur support, you've given me a love of my lifetime..ppl tell me how much you love and care for me, i am touched..how much you think fer me, how much you plan for me..i'm really touched..everyday, i love you more and yearn to spend time with u..hugging u has neva been a troublesome thing fer me..it owaes feels great to hug u..you were owaes dere to support, to help, to guide me..everything frm you to me..means a whole damn lot..once in my life, i was locked in a dark room..till u came and shone light onto the room and i found my way out..planning wat goes nex in our lives, i've neva thought it'll be hard..till today, i realized its really hard..things do change, ppl do change..
this is especially for you..i jus wanna let u noe how much u mean to me..how much i love you..its neva to the brim...its neva too much to be in love..all u wan is jus someone u could spend ur life wit in the future..i hope i've found mine..how about u..i love you..and i really do..

...beauty exposed ;

Saturday, October 02, 2004

well well..time sure do passes quick..i was single in the beginning of the year..till i met him..he gave me the strength to do wat i wanna do, to be wat i wanna be..enuff of the mushy stuffs ar..hee..anyways, he's been someone important to me..owaes been showering me with his love, his care, his concerns onto me..he's my new phase in my life and i hope we will work out well..8 mths aint hard and easy journey but we still did..ups and downs is a sure thing to happen in life, but with the support and love frm someone you love..everything will work out fine..he has helped me every way i needed help..solving problems fer me..really appreciate it..
dear, thanks fer everything u've done..this is fer you..*muacks*..well, may the One above bless this relationship of ours and i sure do wish we work out well..ur army days is ard the corner and its the ultimate challenge for me and you..
all the dudes and dudettes out dere, dun be in a hurry to find someone..tt someone will be in ur life sooner or later..its ur destiny..wats urs will be urs..wats not, will not..so..dun worry tt u wun get a bf or gf, or be envious of ur fwenz..u'll mit one soon..alrighty?..everyone will get to mit tt someone in their life..its only a matter of time..love is patient..
alrighty, my main exams in on monday and tt is the final and last hurdle..dear..hope we will get outta soon and plan fer our little getaway ya..hee..love you so much and Happy Anniversary..*hugs*...

...beauty exposed ;

Friday, October 01, 2004

HEYO!!!...i'm back!!...yupz..hmmm..back from robin's chalet..fun though..haha..filled with lots of rubbish, laughters and laff until u cry those kinda situations..irritating..well..during the 1st day, i met up with ric, nigel, louis, robin, anson. cray and of cuz..my dear...and guess who..i could hear "pong!"..mahjong la..haha...i reached quite late cuz i was slping and i went to skool to hand in my fyp report...yay...finally get it bounded le..hee..*happy*..i made myself at home and chatted wit them awhile..dinner started and robin's parents were ard..oso with shanti..ate alittle tho..curry was good, so was the beehoon..superb..after tt, i took out my books and started studying ok...wa..i really study ok..no joke ar..haha..ya..study till end of chap 1, a little of chap 2 den i stop and played mahjong..piangz..been down in luck..lost alot sia..sadz..slept quite late ar..play mahjong till 6am..tired sia...the guys played 12 hrs of mahjong..gosh..cray came later in the nite..whaha..he 'suay'..cab driver dunno how to come NSRCC, his cab fare totalled up to 16.80..whaha..anyway, the chalet was filled with craps when he arrive..oops..haha..

well, 2nd day was robin's bday..all of us wished him happy bday..hee..guess wat?..mahjong again after tt..haha..i woke up at 2 plus..studied alittle and watched the guys play..i played alittle but i din wanna play much..cuz i losing la..hee..i went to study again..with nigel and anson...'sud rite'..haha..but after awhile, i hungry la...den go find food..dinner started early..ok la..cooked everything up..evelyn and cindy came at 6 plus in the evening..haha..had fun starting up the fire and bbq-ing food for the guys..1st time i see ppl use fan to set fire de..funny ar....robin was badly splatted wit chocolate cream..hhaa..ric got splashed with sotong water on his hair and he had to bathe 4 times to get rid of the smell..damn smelly..dear rubbed some watermelon onto his head..haha...poor thing..not his bday but he kanna until lidat..almost all the guys got sabohed..only nicholas..whaha..dear got splatted wit watermelon..wat sia..1st time see ppl play wit watermelon..only me, evelyn and cindy watched the whole show on the sofa..Relac-On-Corner la sistas..haha..lawrence came at ard 11 plus..he too played mahjong..this time, i played the whole 16 rounds..and i only won 1 buck..betta den nothing rite..haha..i laff till i cry a couple of times..due to lawrence and cray..they're owaes making fun of each other and talking alot of crap stuffs..lawrence even kissed the mahjong tiles when he won..*yuck*..hee..he was even talking to the tiles..gosh..mad guy..but very funny..cray lost his base money..poor guy..hee..funny part was when ric was slping..he sleep talk..he was asking "you wan siew mai?"..all of us laff man..funny ar..he was sleep talking..so cute..haha..dream of food...

3rd day oredi..nothing much to do..guys were playing mahjong again..i studied awhile..head out for b'fast-cum-lunch...after tt bot some food for dinner at shop and safe..headed back to chalet and helped shanti and robin play mahjong..they won ok..haha..they wanted to share the winnings, but i din wan to..its their luck..not mine..so i rejected the money offered..whaha..beginner's luck i guess..hee..dear lost too..hmmm..sad sad..louis came back in the evening..play mahjong AGAIN..i tell u...this chalet is a gambling den..no one played Risk, juz mahjong all the way..haha..last nite for the chalet..ric, louis, lawrence, nigel, cray headed home..left me, dear, robin and shanti in da hse..haha..anson came to mit us at nite..and all of us studied together..cold nite..windy too..had a few smokes den headed back to study..tired ar..study till 2 am, watched tv wit dear..had supper together and watched movie together..*nice nice*..hee..i vomitted sia..dunno why..stomach too bloated..went to force out my vomit..and it really came out..*pukes*..it felt horrible..went to bed ard 4am..gonna slp fer a few hrs den check-out..and...

here i am!..at home slogging le..had b'fast wit dear at a kopitiam opposite my place..he brought me back home and he left..he look exhausted too..not enuff slp..*sayang*..anyway, wanna let u all noe..STARHUB reception damn bad sia..all day long, either no reception or only 1 caption of reception..upset..whole day looking for reception in the chalet..piangz..the network dun cover up to changi..M1 full caption sia...aiyoh..shanti had weird network..-malaysia la..indonesia la..-funny ar..haha..well, nites peeps..i'm tired liao..gonna rest and study again..paper's on the 4th..by the way..HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!..hee..alrighty, take care all...

...beauty exposed ;