...Lost In Beauty...

Thursday, May 31, 2007

finally i get to see my bunch of monkeys..

and it was pretty fun..

hehe..

crazy nite over at the ktv..

and it was rather cheap!..

to think it was on the eve of public holi..

finally i had some crazy laffters wit them..

at least, my mind was relaxed for awhile..

been freaking unstable these few mths..

(and i still am..apparently..)

trying my best to put my mind at ease..

trying...

and come to think of it..

i haf very rich fwenz!..

gosh..

one has a new fone, N95..

freaking cool fone wit 5 mega pix camera..

freaking nice!..

another has a new car, Saab 93..

KAO..

i oso wan a car and i'm aiming at it now..

tt's my target..

for now..

jus had my hair chopped alittle..

reminisce my long struts tho'..

miss my long hair...

hehe..

enjoy tis holiday guys..

take care..

cheers..

...beauty exposed ;

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

i'm having so much fun wit my dslite!..

gosh..i'm practically glued to it..hehe..

thank God i bot it..

this would keep me occupied in the meantime..

playing the New version of super mario is damn

FUN..

hahhaha..

yes, relive back to old sch days i guess..

hehe..

but its really damn fun..

came back from my ''holiday'' flight..

tho' jakarta's stay is very short..

i still managed to swim!..

all the while, i've been going dere..i owaes neva get the chance to swim..

and i did it on this flight!..haha

sun was perfect, water was great..

shiok..hehe..

best of all, my poly classmate was on my flight..

we had fun onboard sia..hahaha..

'thanks for the flight Mr MicroE'

whahaha..

we checked in, together wit another 4 crew, went for drinks..

beers, vodka..

whoo~..and food..

chatted till 3am, headed to bed..

and i woke up at 930am for my swim..

HEALTHY EHHHH...

hahaha..

anyway, the flight was fantastic..

i'm loving it..

my NDS lite..

whoo~..

off to games now!..hehe..

...beauty exposed ;

Friday, May 25, 2007

came back from a horrible flight..

practically walk back from Bombay to Sin..

tt's how bad it was..

and i dun mean to be racist..

but i FUCKING HATE INDIANS..

1stly, cant wait..

2ndly, cant wait..

3rdly, still cant wait!!..

my god!..

and oso, doesnt mean u're a freaking big PPS

who helped me earned my bonus of 6.07% doesnt mean u can

bully all the way..

doesnt mean u're a PPS, i muz freaking care for you

lyk i'm yr maid..

doesnt mean u're a PPS, i muz hunt for food for you when its

not my fault tt the main courses are not enuff when the aircraft is

at a freaking 14000 feet..

doesnt mean u're a PPS, a complain to the company can make you the

KING OF PASSENGERS..

in the end, u're jus some CHEAPO PAX tt jus wanna gain some

BENEFITS from company..

FUCKING CHEAPO..

got $$ to travel, travel in BIZ class or First class..

u can eat all u wan, haf a buffet for all u wan..

until u vomit..

why travel economy and act lyk a KING..

blardy ****

really cant stand these kinda pax..

blardy hell jus feel lyk giving a tight slap..

gif some credits for us, trolley dolleys can..

my god..we work, get stuffs for u..

until we all neva eat our meals..

and u, jus becuz u din get yr meal..

make a big hoo-haa..in the end..

u get yr meal and everyone showers attn on u..

FUCKED UP..

i dun care if u're rich..

i dun care if u're a fucking millionaire..

or u're jus down to RS 1 buck..

i fucking dun care..

i'm an air stewardess..

not a maid..

maid who mops floor, wipe yr butt for you when u shit..

a fucking big fat complain dun scare the shit out of me..

get tt in yr head..

ARGH..freaking mad!..

dun understand why dere's this kinda SINGAPOREANS ard..

SINGAPORE INDIANS somemore..

my god..........

stop strutting yr airs ok..

we're people of the same equality..

i can be as fucking rich as u..

god..

gotta get some air..

take care ppl..

chao~!!..

...beauty exposed ;

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

after a gd day of slp, i felt so much betta..

things has to get betta..

it has to..

it muz..

flying seems so mundane to me..

everyone is crazy for off days..

including me..

but every now and den, i mit ppl tt i noe..

and tt makes me real happy to see ppl i noe..

think its really time for me to settle wad i wanna do in my life..

and stick for it for a longggg time..

career..

yes..

HUHHHHHHHH...

i wan my own cafe..

''wait long long''..

i'm blabbering my nonsence again..haha

i jus came back from a happy flight..

and it felt great tho it was a full load..

i'm glad i've done great on the flight..

well, to mr/ms retribution, yes, wad goes ard, comes ard..

wad goes up, muz come down..

i totally agree wit u..

but i dun nid this reminder..as i noe it myself..

i haven done anything wrong..

so, i dun deserve any kind of disgusting treatments..

and if u neva get the story rite, pls dun act as if

U NOE IT ALL ABT ME..

thanks mr/ms retribution..

i'm oredi not feeling gd..

stop adding vinegar, pepper and salt..

it doesnt do any good..

wad goes ard..comes ard..

1 day, someone will do it to u too..

oh, shut up..

i cant wait for my off days..i wan breaks..

i wanna enjoy my off day..

nowadays, staying home is a luxury for me..

but sometimes, it does get bored..

and wad do i do when i get bored?..

slp..munch..watch tv..listen songs..read..

hehe..

take care everyone..

happy birthday dearest sis..

tho' i hate u very much, but still, i love you as u're my only sis..

...beauty exposed ;

Saturday, May 19, 2007

jus came back from flight and i end up tearing at the end of the day..

supposed to enjoy my off day but i end up hating myself..

cant i jus enjoy my off days..

cant i jus be happy enjoying my off days..

why do i owaes hafta end up tearing..

why do i owaes end up frustrated..

why do i owaes end up hating myself for being around..

why do i owaes experience this kinda stuffs when all i wan is jus

to enjoy wad i haf now..

i haf only myself to walk..

i haf only myself to hold..

i haf only myself to stand up..

why do i owaes end up falling down time and time again..

i've lost my self esteem..

i've lost my confidence..

i've lost my faith..

i've lost myself totally..

cant i jus enjoy wad is in front of me now?..

cant i jus enjoy wad is installed for me on a brand new day?..

why cant i enjoy?..

why cant i enjoy being alone?..

why do i owaes hafta end up in a knot?..

why do i owaes hafta end up in a dead end with no way out?..

why cant i owaes see light in a dark place?..

why do i owaes end up crying alone?..

haven i been any worse?..

haven i gone thru lots?..

haven i suffered enuff?..

why issit owaes me..

why..

...beauty exposed ;

Friday, May 11, 2007

Your Love Type: ENTP

The Visionary

In love, you are always trying to improve and grow your relationship.
For you, sex should be a spontaneous adventure.

Overall, you are magnetic, inspiring, and a charmer.
However, you tend to get bored and want to change partners frequently.

Best matches: INFJ and INTJ

What's" Your Love Type?

haha..found this while surfing..quite interesting tho'..haha..anyway, its a friday..

enjoy yr friday peeps..

Happy Birthday ah wei!..

sorry, this came late..hehe..enjoy celebrations ya~..

and yr NEW wallet horrr..keke..hope u lyk it..

thots haf been running miles and miles in my mind..

crazy wild imaginations in my mind..

i wished i nid not haf all these thots and wild guessings..

but i cant help it..

i jus keep thinking of everything..

you, stuffs abt us, everything..

argh~..teach me how to stop..

enjoy yr weekends~..

take care peeps, chao~!!..

...beauty exposed ;

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

yes yes yes!!!..i did it all by myself!..firstly, i couldnt get my flashbox out..and i figured out myself!!!..and i did it!!..yes yes yes!!..and secondly, my fonts were super big..and i figured out how to make it small fonts!!..yay!..so happy!..hehehe..

went to sing today..not bad..release my vocals..hehe..

thanks for the ktv.. =)

brought my dearest mummy out to shop in town today..

we had a great time together..

and i really enjoyed it..

we even had sushi together!..keke..

wad a mother-daughter day today~..hehe..

mummy, i love you!!!..

mother's day is jus this week..tot of anything yet?..

make sure you guys make known to yr mothers tt you love em' ya..keke..

today, this old caucasian couple was in taka..

the husband couldnt find his wife..

as his wife has frail heart..and she's ard 80-90yrs old..

worried, he budged into ladies toilet, screaming for his wife..

i asked wad happened, and he told me he couldnt find his wife..

could see from his face tt he is seriously worried..

i was hoping i could bump into his wife while walking out..

and true enuff, i bump into an old lady..

asked her if her name was 'jo'..

she said yes..i told her, her husband is looking high and low for her..

told her to stay put wit my mummy while i run to look for her husband..

i found the husband, and he was so relived he saw his wife..

and he thanked me for being so nice..

with a smile, i left..

i turned back, and saw this old couple holding hands..

window shopping together..

wad a sweet moment..

guess this is wad love means..

guess this is why marriage vows haf " i will love you till death do us part"..

this old couple showed me wad love is all about..

i'm a happy girl today..for helping this old couple..

its so sweet to see ppl walking ard the streets..

take care peeps, chao~!!..

...beauty exposed ;

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

aint she adorable?..haha..her new t-shirt..from Japan..

jumbo jay~..hehe..

heard a news from this IFS i flew wit..a stewardess, quitted abt 6-7 yrs ago, diagnosed with lung cancer..and it has spreaded to her brain and neck..and its terminal stage..gosh..and she's only in her early 30s..doesnt this teach us tt we cant really predict wad will happen to us?..life is so short..live it to the fullest..wadever we can enjoy, go enjoy..you may neva noe if 1 day, u might jus collapse and diagnosed with some illness tt'll be terminating yr life..rite?..

how fragile a life can be..

been pretty emo these few days..mabbe wad happened last week made an impact on me..to a point, i dun even feel lyk going out or seeing any of my fwenz..dunno wads wrong wit me..and i jus indulge myself in eating..i've been eating non-stop..i dunno why..guess the impact is too much for me to handle..but still, i gotta handle it as i'm all alone now..i really wish to be alone..i dun wan anyone to be ard me..jus leave me alone..dun bother abt me for the time being..i'll be back..as soon as i'm all set..i'm tired of explaining and saying things le..dun ask how, dun ask why, dun ask anything..leave me alone!..

i'm tired of everything..i wan a break..i nid a break..break free from the chains..

leave me alone..

...beauty exposed ;

Friday, May 04, 2007

packing things up for you was a hard one for me..

its lyk packing all our memories and returning to you..

shirts by shirts, all folded..

lyk folding our love and pack it up to return..

bag by bag, with a heavy heart, i carry..

the journey to yr place was exceptionally long..

walking to your place, i had to breathe hard..

thinking to myself, 'this will prolly be the last time i'm walking this path'

din see yr car and i gave u a call..

dialling yr no. was hard too..

but u're still on my speed dial no. 5..haha..

went up to yr hse only to see andy..

i stepped into a very familiar place, my second home..

the kids are still as adorable..

the 2 babies are so cute..

carrying my favy in my arms, playing wit her..

she's still as pretty as ever..

her smiles jus melts my heart..

and i wished i could see her grow up..

when u came, my heart skipped a beat..

u're still the one tt i love..

u're still the one tt i love yr smiles to me..

u're still you..

and tt's why i stil love you..

we chatted and played with the kids..

i melted..

the kids pulled us back..

taking my things, i breathed hard..

i wish i nid not take my things back..

seeing our pix on yr bedside table..

my heart smiled..

and u said " i'll still wan to put it dere.."

my heart smiled again..

mummy said to come down whenever i'm free..

does she noe?or she doesnt?..

i smiled to mummy and said "orh.."

it was hard parting wit you..

and it was even harder when i got onto the cab..

with questions puzzling my mind..

thots lingering in my mind..

with love still growing for you..

i left..tearing a piece of my heart for you..

i wish you all the good things for you..

i wish you best of everything..

i still wished, we nid not come to this path..

the love i haf for you, still lingers..

it'll take me awhile to let go..

cuz..i still love you..

i'm sorry peeps..its really hard..gimme days to walk alone..i'm sorry..i may seem strong on the outside, but inside me, i'm tearing and falling apart..its hard letting a piece of my heart go..its hard..i'm sorry..i'll be back soon..

...beauty exposed ;

Thursday, May 03, 2007

been long since i went Mambo..

yday was fun..

met up wit my SB/BG fwen and its been sometime

since we catch up..

12 may ya!!..haha..cant wait!..

clubs r owaes so irritating..

at the very end, songs are damn good..

beginning of it, songs are so so only..

but, i haven been mambo-ing..

and it was definitely fun~..

making ppl high is so fun..hhaha

all sorts of language spoken is damn funny..

" i wanna buy car..car car car car car~~~.."

playing 5 10 was oso super funny..

thanks ppl for making my frustrated day a good one..

tho' something happened in the beginning..

bernice, miss you dere lor, u #$%^&@

hahahahhaha..

things wil be betta, things will turn out good..

things will brighten up for me..

it will..

it has too..

take care peeps..

i miss bens and jerrys..

chao~!!

...beauty exposed ;