Thursday, November 30, 2006
suddenly the scenario tt happened 2 yrs ago, is re-cycling again..everything is recollecting in my mind now..and to this date, history repeats again..everything repeats, recycles, once again..the cycle is back..
since things r going this way, den lemme truly take a break and learn to appreciate things in life and people around me..i noe i've been a nuisance, saying i wanna fnd myself and stuffs..i've been annoying..
the day before today, was great..things felt so simple..so loving..everything jus felt so gd..and everything now is torn..tt's why i said the cycle repeats 2 yrs ago..exactly the same..was having fun, feeling so loving, den the nex day, came crashing down..dreams came crashing down..
i feel numb towards everything..why arent i crying?..i wanna be alone..jus leave me alone ba..everything is said and done..if it has to be this way, den let it be..
i thank you for everything under the sun tt u've done for me..i thank you for loving me so much and would do anything in the world for me..i thank you for taking care of me and cares so much for me..i thank you for taking so much care for my family, esp mummy daddy..i thank you for doing so much for me..i thank you for the trips we've gone to, to Redang, to JB, to Bali and most of all to Beijing..i thank you for the terrific times i had in Beijing..i thank you for looking out for my family and neva let us out of yr sight..i thank you for bargaining prices and make my parents laff madly..i thank you for making my parents enjoy the trip..i thank you for being dere for me..i thank you for bringing me to places together wit fwenz..i thank you for everything tt revolves in my life..i thank you for being so close to the kids and i miss them every now and den..i thank you for everything, anything, tt is in my life..basically, you were in my life and i thank you for tt..
peeps, leave me alone..stop asking me le..much has been said..
chao~..
...beauty exposed ;
Sunday, November 26, 2006
man oh man~..MOS was fun fun fun!..super fun!...we had so many pictures taken and it was really a crazy fun filled night..hehe..
night started at dinner at Mr Beans..met up wit wei, eliza and eddy..haha..but they left after a short while, i mean eliza and eddy..i had my dinner and we're off to MOS..whoo~, couldnt wait for the night to start..hehe..went in witout paying, WHAHAHAA..the night started off!..
decided to open a bottle wit the guys and babes..Chivas was up, drinks were downed..Vodka jugs and apple shooters..cheers to everyone!..me, janey, fat, wei, tiong, derek, yc..we really had our fun!..really fun filled night!..all trying to make each other drink..and we had to down to so many glasses..hey, black is not for me and janey man..pukes..but, halfway thru, the girls including me were almost high oredi..whaha..
went off to smoove den to mambo..super high..really high..but at the end of the night, we noe we did enjoy ourselves..laffters, stupid moves, wonderful memories and nice pixes..see oredi, can keep laffing one..hahaha..
guys, i did enjoy!..more to come if possible yea..no driving hor!..hahahaha..all now, having brain jam problem..hahaha..so funny..
thanks everyone..cheers to last night!..
chao~..
...beauty exposed ;
Sunday, November 19, 2006
professional bummer is here to update now..hehe..janey and me haf certified ourselves as professional bummers..whahha..
st james SUCKS!!..to the max!..man~~..i dunno if its really a club or jus a pub..its so boring..my god..Dragonfly was much betta, but it was packed wit OLs and more OLs and OMs..Bellini was boring wit jazz..not my kinda music..Movida was super boring..my god..if u gif me free entry, i will consider going..man, its super boring..st james sux and i wun go again..
yday's group was huge..haha..we had 9 ppl wit us..eddy, tiong, don, felix, felix's gf, guowei, guowei's cousin, derek and me..not bad a grp..hehe..we had so much fun dancing..drinking..dancing..drinking..smoking lyk chimneys..we had our beers at st james..and we club hop to DBL 0..my oh my..i miss tt place..haha, my usual tues, thurs and sat place..whahha..cheap drinks, fun environment..i miss my DBL 0 fun..haha..yes, mambo songs again..beginning to love mambo songs plus, the actions..hahaha..so synchro sia..we drank jugs and jugs..and lastly a lambo for me, don and derek..whahhaa..don's 1st solo for lambo..whaha..stupid fire burn my eyes sia..the flames..whoo..but its shiok..make me dance even madder..haha..but we had our fun..making everyone dance, drink..keke..we left DBL 0 at 3am..by the time i reach home, its 430am..oh man..tired boy..faaster shower and bathe, zonk~..
tired lyk f**k..haha..but i had loads of fun..really loads..laff lyk mad, play lyk mad..let my hair down until i think drop liao..ahhaha..
anyway..i've been partying lyk mad recently..i dunno wad vibes or bugs got into me..drink until i feel tired, reach home and i can sleep soundly..otherwise, pretty hard for me to sleep at nights..totally feel super tired, den i can sleep..haha..weird eh..mabbe dere's things deep in my heart tt's bugging me and i jus wanna kick it aside..or even betta, run..sometimes, feel being alone is a gd time to catch up wit yr ownself..but sometimes, u feel lonely..ironic eh..haiz..this is life..when u grow up, problems jus flow in lyk river..stacking on top of each other, and going crazy and mad at the end..by the last leg of the race, u're oredi drained out..completely tired of everything..its not tt i dun haf any feelings in me..its jus tt i'm numb to things ard me..i dun feel anything ard me..u can say i'm lost..yes, i dun deny the fact tt i'm lost..and its a kinda "lost" feeling tt is very difficult to explain..really difficult to explain..i'm sorry if i've hurt anyone or wad, but i'm feeling 10 times hurt den u..i choose this path, i choose to be lidat..i choose to be a pro runner..i rather i dun wan other things, dun wan any luxuries tt money can buy, dun wan any materials tt can make me happy, i jus wan myself, my everything back..
i think i've said enuff..this things will go on and on..haha..anyway, wadever's ard me now, i appreciate it alot..i love everything ard me now..be it fwenz, my love, my family, wadever, i love it..dun think i'm dead to feelings, i'm not..i jus feel numb..i can still see..i'm not blind..cheers..
take care peeps, time to hit the sack..
chao~..
...beauty exposed ;
Friday, November 17, 2006
mambo was great on wed!!..basically, when i was at zouk, said hi to all my fwenz the moment i was dere..bumped into bryan, fiona, agacia, paul, christopher, batch 848, jiemin and my baby..whaha..
but my company was great..we had so much fun..drinks at winebar, chat chat chat before heading in..had apple shooters and 6 jugs..tt's not alot, guowei..haha..we had more last time at DBL 0..10 jugs, to be frank..haha..1st time at the dance floor..tt's where i bump into paul, christopher and batch 848..ahhhh..so happy..keke..and so, we danced, played, drinked, smoked..hahaha..janey and me were enjoying lyk mad..its been sometime since we clubbed..we miss patsy..hmmm..but funny, the songs tt night, wasnt tt fantastic..pretty weird..where got mambo in the midst, change song to beat it, bon jovi, linkin park one..so weird..hmmm..anyway, we all still enjoyed..haha..now u guys noe, how to cheat in 5-10!!..haha..u cant cheat janey tho..she'll catch u..whaha..rite babe..thanks for the shooters sweetie..muacks..left ard 230am, and send ah wei and don to grab don's car at bugis..den send ah wei back..whahhaa..he couldnt make it oredi..hmmm..dere wasnt alot of drinks tho..hahah..nex time again yea!!..
was supposed to go for JNB flight, but the lazy bugs are ard me..dun wanna go..went for my cousin's wedding instead..not very grand, jus a simple dinner..food was not bad, ambience was alright..but her gown was gorgeous..i lyk the color so much..vibrant red!!..and best of all, her honeymoon's at Maldives!!!..ahhhh..i wanna go dere toooo...keke..i wan the room in the midst of the sea one..hahaha..she told me tt's very expensive..keke..i wan!!!..hehe..
another day to slack..great..take care peeps..
chao~!!..
...beauty exposed ;
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
i'm back!..luckily i went for this trip, otherwise, my well deserved off days will be wasted on standbys..and luckily i went cuz i met one of a crew tt i flew wit before and it has been sometime since we met!..
i was totally shagged out during the flight and zonked off on the bus, on our way to Langham hotel..oh boy, this the 1st time i completely zonked out..haha..decided to head to Occidental for dinner wit 1 of the girl, which was i met long time ago..my son, we ordered as if we've been starving ourselves for 10 days..but all was gd, we had our fill, and headed to Star Mart..bot my janey babe, her favy starbursts..haha..she love it, i love it too..keke..anyways, headed back to the hotel and slept for more then 12 hrs..i cant help but follow SG timing..imagine me waking up at 1600 AKL time but SG time is jus 11am!!!..oh ballz..really had bad timing sia..and by the time its evening back in SG, i'm oredi in my midnight mood~..argh..hate jet lags..but on the brighter side, i watched a couple of movies..Hitch, 40 Yr old Virgin, Wicker Park, Elvis Presley..hmmm..not bad, at least, i fell aslp thru the movie sometimes..hehe..
coming back home, my position was B2..man..i literally walk back from AKL to SG..my god..completely drain out all my energy..but, hahaha..my heating of meals has improved!..haha..oh ya, did i mention i had a SNY under me on my way up to AKL?..oh my god..i dunno how to teach sia..lyk, its their 1st SNY and i nid to teach her necessary stuffs within the flight..so tied up wit time..but nevertheless, i still teach wadever i can..and HEY!..i'm the most senior in the galley sia!!..hahahaha..how many times will i encounter this kinda situation rite?..hahahaha..but still, i was abit blur in teaching her wad..i'm a forgetful person, u see..she's not bad, jus tt her gearing is lyk gear 1..and its super slow and i had to push her..i'm sorry, but we're THIS FAST during meal service..and i oso master it liao..meaning, slamming here and dere, throwing here and dere, preparing drinks any whoo ha..keke..but all was well..i managed to teach her whenever i've the free time to tell her..
oh..by the way..whahahha..with effect from 10 Nov 2006, i'm an OFFICIAL driver oredi..whahaha..i've officially passed..whoo hoo~..dad's happy, mum's happy, everyone's happy!..dad's so proud of me for passing for the 1st time, mum was shocked tt i pass and say i'm so li hai~..hahaha..bro said i'm outstanding, my da sao said tt's gd, my sis said well done..whahaha..my bitches are proud of me, my fwenz are proud of me!..whee~~..i did it..whaha, in jus 4 mths..whoo~..thru hard work and reluctance in going to driving centre and now, i've passed!..hip hip hooray~!!!..keke..
i realize my mummy and daddy really am cute and dote me alot..dear came to pick me up at the gate yday..before i came out, i oredi saw my dad and my mum..and they tot i haven seen them..when i came out, i told dear i oredi saw them..hahaha..but guess where my mum and dad were?..mummy was hiding behind a pillar rite beside me and dad was standing miles away..i pretended i din see them..and my mum jump out of the pillar and screamed..not very loud la, jus lyk those surprise~!! kinda feeling..i couldnt stop smiling..and den, i saw daddy..hahaha..i told mummy, " before i came out, i oredi saw u guys.."..haha..she oso laff..hmmm..i love my parents..keke..so adorable..muacks muacks!..she went home and prepared clam porridge for me and dear..so yummy..keke..and i went out to mit my bitches..janey finished her exams, ready to go for her HKG trip, pat got into her new job oredi, bin ge is in the 'ord mood' and clearing his leave, yc is still sadly, in ns..whahaha..ooopsss...
anyways, haf i updated enuff?..i'm gonna haf my bens and jerrys tonight and i cant wait!...whheeee...gotta go now, to see my baby amni..keke..take care peeps, chao~!!..
* i wanna break free..but can i?..*
...beauty exposed ;
Thursday, November 09, 2006
gloomy and rainy day today..love it when it rains but it sets my heart into a gloomy mood..oh well..
haven slept enuff, haven slept well..starting work tml and i'm feeling irritated by it..why does everyone need to work..damn..once again, things twirling in my mind..why am i in such a state..wad haf i done to deserve this kinda state..i wanna leave, i wanna run..i wanna throw everything aside, i wanna leave everything behind..but can i?..argh..no i cant..
wish i can jus simply take out my brain and go for a brain wash session..argh..
completely lost..complete blank..leave me alone..
...beauty exposed ;
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
catching up wit an ol' fwen yday was great..we went Mr Beans after he picked me up at CDC..wow..its been long since i met him and din noe couple of things happened among my fwenz..well, back to history..
back in year 1 poly, i had this bunch of crazy fwenz..mainly me, eliza, tiong, guowei, say, koh, don, felix and eddy..these 9 of us..came from different backgrounds..rich or poor, thin or fat..(whaha..)..but anyways, we came across each other's paths in year 1, class of E124..we became gd fwenz, owaes meeting up, gatherings, partying, chilling, slacking, skipping classes together..haha..we owaes skip classes to go play pool..and Pavilion Pool place is the most hot place..and another thing is tt, without fail, ktv at the end of the mth..at Loyang Point..every end of the mth, they'll surely be a ktv..ahha..fun ne..playing mahjong, talking rubbish, slacking is our favy past times..but when it comes to exams, we all can compare how much we get for our results..and we compare for the lowest..whahaha..this bunch of fwenz, is my Zhu Peng Gou You..keke..
we went separate ways after 2 of them decided to change course to Design and another 2 got kicked out due to bad results..i moved on to another year and lastly, i was the surviving one..whaha..unbelievable?..believe it..meeting up wit them is quite difficult as our timings owaes clash and the guys had to go for their army..which, in time, we lost contact..
i managed to catch up wit a few of time and finally, i caught up wit 1 of them last night..and it was a gd experience..he's one of my gd fwen who noes my problems..he was dere for me when i was experiencing my downfall 2 yrs ago..haha..time flies eh..
anyways, its been long since we met up and we finally did yday..over coffee, catch up wit the ol' times..noticed the changes among all of our fwenz..some wit gfs, some witout, some working, some studying, some still NS..haha..nice to hear all the updated stuffs..we chatted alot and knew abt each other's problems more..and found out tt we're on the same boat..sama sama..whahha..jus tt, he has control of it le..haha, whereas me, still not yet..we're all runners yea? ah wei?..hahahaha..we love to run..keke..oops..
and i'm gonna catch up wit another 2 today..i'm glad i'm still appreciated by them, still maintain a fwenship wit them..as wad i owaes say, fwenz are forever..fwenz are my most important thing in my life..and i can say, i cannot live witout fwenz..who can sia..i salute u..whaha..anyway, tt's all abt them..
my driving test is coming and i'm pretty hyped up abt it..i'm abit excited, anxious but yet abit scared..hmmm..wish me luck!!!..keke..i wan my pearly whitey SuGaR swifty!..whahhaa..
take care ppl, will update again..chao~!..
*..butterflies are meant to fly..i am that kinda butterfly tt's meant to fly..*
...beauty exposed ;
Monday, November 06, 2006
welcome myself back to singapore!!..seriously, i miss singapore!..and i miss my fwenz..i miss everything back home..8 days being away is no joke..i miss the clean clear air, the clean water, the clean toilet, the different varieties of food, the weather in singapore!..
beijing holiday was great..now tt i noe more abit of china history, i'm not a gong gong liao..whaha..jus tt their history is super big and sometimes boring..day 2 was good as i was sick..started vomitting and wasnt feeling tt well..vomitted wadever i ate..bad feeling..queasy feeling..argh~..decided to go to the hospital for medication..my gosh..i wished i was in singapore's hospital sia..their hospital is really terok and i mean terok..really..no joke..and i had to go to this ISOLATED clinic beside the hospital..why?..cuz i had a slight fever..and they wan me to go to the FEVER CLINIC..i was lyk, i'm having stomach upset, why send me to the fever clinic?..argh~..haha..and its really isolated..i had to walk OUT of the hospital ok..my god..den, had my blood tested, nothing's wrong..and they gave me east and west medication..haha..so funny..i tot its all western medication..but no, its a mix!..haha..good experience..haha..
after taking all the medication for days, i felt betta..but, my appetite went down..din eat as much as day 1..but still, i got betta everyday..
went to places i neva imagine i would..Great Wall of China..and i climbed it..haha..Forbidden City, Summer Palace, Tiananmen Square, Ming tombs blah blah..really ancient history..even their bedrooms are being preserved..the olden buildings, the history of different buildings..and makes me wonder "does these ppl really exist sia.."..its being preserved for sooooooooo long oredi..really so amazed by it..all the different emperors..Emperor Qianlong has the deepest impact on me..haha..dunno why oso..mabbe i feel his name is nice..haha..
lyk our singapore history not very fantastic lidat..haha..anyway, days passed very quickly..day by day, waking up early for the tour, enjoying the days..my parents enjoyed, i noe..shopping was great..everyone bot stuffs, except me..haha..lyk nothing much to buy lidat..and all of us, together we spent SGD 3K..haha...whoo..alot sia..haha..but most importantly, we enjoyed ourselves and made fwenz..
baby and me made fwenz wit the tour guides..both the foreign and local one..haha, they're both a funny guides..think we are in the same era ba, tt's how we clicked..and we're waiting for the foreign guide to come to singapore in march..so tt we can go ktv together..haha..
met some arrogant ppl, nose sticking up to the sky de..met some very nice ppl..24 ppl, 12 couples..
days passed and we reached singapore's no. 1 airport..i miss everything back home..haha..
i miss my bitches and we met up yday at balcony..i miss everyone of u!!..really..keke..lets meet up again k?..
we took a total of 450 pixes..not alot oredi, compared to another couple who took over 1000 pics..haha..but, we captured all the moments tt we enjoyed..i pictured my dearest mummy enjoying herself, be it playing wit the feather stuff, ball stuffs and even dancing..haha..and my dearest daddy so immersed in the history of china, so excited to see this and tt..and of cuz, me and baby, enjoying ourselves too..
we went wit 2 cargo bags and came back wit another 9 more bags..9 ok!..carry until mad sia..unpacking even worse..sheesh..keke..
anyways, i still haf another 3 more days to my beginning of work liao..no more leave, nothing else but off days..haiz..back to work again~..argh..feeling the dragging mood again..dunno if i'm enjoying my work or wad..i betta enjoy my 3 more days..it'll pass by very quickly..
and ya, my TP is on this fri..whoo~..all the besterest luck to me!..keke..
i'm gonna rest now..take care peeps, chao~..
...beauty exposed ;
