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    Thursday, July 20, 2006


    sometimes, dun u feel as if no one cares for u?no one dotes on u?no one no longer pampers u?gifs u all the attention?..ya..i do..and i'm feeling it oredi..i'm starting to feel tt oredi..prolly i jus deserve it due to everything tt i've done..and now, i'm longing for some pamperings and dotes..jus feel tt everything is on my own now..prolly ya..everything IS on my own now..

    even tho' tears flow down my cheeks, no one noes..even tho' how down i feel, i neva seem to say it out and jus bottle it in myself..thinking tt someone would actually noe wad i'm thinking or how i'm feeling..i think i'm seriously dumb..y cant i jus say it out..i jus cant seem to say it out..bottling up is wad i owaes do and i'll end up tearing and everything is kept within me..how stupid can i actually be..sometimes, i feel tt when i'm away, things would be betta..lyk no one will miss me, wun think of me, wun be troubled by me, wun find me a nuisance, can enjoy yr own times happily and will prolly miss me for the sake of missing me..sometimes, i feel tt it'll be betta if i'm away for gd..well, everthing's IF..

    i'm not an easy book to read but i'm prolly an easy book to understand..i'm jus going down the drain again..i need some comforting words and hugs..imagine me tearing in front of a comp rite now..how pathetic i am rite..yes, i noe..but this is how pathetic i am rite now..i feel lyk a piece of shyt rite now..does being alone helps?..how smiley i turn up to be, u'll neva smile back lyk how u used to..prolly, its jus a fake smile or a mask..i dunno..but i owaes think to myself tt u're being truthful to the smiles tt u gave me..i owaes love to see the way u smile..

    whenever i daydream, u'd think tt i'm giving u an attitude and it jus starts to boil up in yr head and u'll get headaches..i neva meant to gif u any means of attitude but i was really jus daydreaming..mabbe i wasnt convincing enuff..or..u'll neva believe me again..i dun blame u for tt..its all my fault..mabbe being away does helps..i may haf close fwenz who would be dere for me, but tt doesnt mean i'll owaes spill all the beans out to dem..i'm owaes chucking it aside and let it be..well, again..mabbe i'm not convincing enuff for u to believe me again..i dun blame u..

    once again..i'm feeling down and tearing..tears rolling down my eyes and no one noes..u're jus sleeping soundly..prolly u're jus too tired to be bothered by this kinda stunts by me again..

    mabbe being away DOES helps..

    ...beauty exposed ;

    Thursday, July 06, 2006


    okok..i noe i haven been updating..sorry peeps, am rather tired and drained out everyday..during my 4 days off, everyday is jus party party party..sleeping at 5am is a norm for me and waking up in the late noons..hehe..tt's me..

    finally, the mth of july is here..1st thing 1st, my b-o-n-u-s..whaha..its coming~~~..and my leave, which means..my redang trip..hehe..yesh, re lang dao..afterwhich, my aug leave too..hehe..basically, my roster is so damn empty..haha..but i'm given a Amsterdam..i'm so happy..but i dunno if i wanna do..altho' i really wanna see whole pasture of TULIPS..ahhh..tulips~~..my love..hehe..will see abt tt when the time comes..

    jus got back frm Sydney..tired..drained..arms aching, back aching..man..wad do i gain frm this job..hehe..

    i've stopped the soccer games..my favy team is out..yesh, Brazil..damn..and stopped watching too..darn..nowadays, mahjong seems to be surfacing..hehe..yea..all the way till early morning 7am, den i get to slp..and waking up 5 hrs later..JB was good..i spent again..well, its on Oakley sunnies..i love the color, esp its dual color..simply love it..and i purchased it..hehe..oops..sinful JB..haha..but, i enjoyed myself..keke..

    alrighty, am sleepy now..gotta go catch my zhou gong and play pool oredi..nite peeps..chao~~..

    ...beauty exposed ;