...Lost In Beauty...

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

june 7th..yea..final interview!..whoo~..10am..if successful, tea session wit a panel of interviewers until 1330pm..*stressed*..hmmz, wish me luck..haha..( wad do i see myself in 5 yrs time.....*think think*..)..

been out last whole weekend manz...haha..

fri, went for steamboat dinner wit my ex colleagues..cindy, sharon, cruise, bryan and sharon jie's bf..so funny while eating..keke..but its good..gather wit them..den as usual..tea sessions wit the babes..but janey came late manz..alamakz..headed to bedok 85 to eat bak chor mee..but i din la..too full..couldnt slp until 7am plus..cuz of the tea la..irritating, this week, i'm not drinking tea..i'm drinking others!..hmph..keke..

dear asked me to change and go down mit him for breakfast..i was lyk *whoa*..i'm still on my bed ma..hahha..when i wanna go down, i feeling tired liaoz..so, i din..went to zZzZzz~lala land...keke..BUT..he came down instead..haha..he reached my place ard 2pm..and told me we'll be catching Madagascar!!..whee~!!...so, quiickly changed lo..reach marina sq..together wit his sistas and his nephews and niece, went to watch the show..not as funny as Ice Age lei..but its funny lo..but Ice Age, i laff until lao ba sai (tears) lei..but this, neva la..only find tt toopid zebra so cute..hahha..and the racoons..toooopid.. (mada- whoo- ha?..)..keke..and the song is cute!!..keke..

*i lyk to move it move it..i lyk to..MOVE IT..*..hahahha..

dere goes my sat..sun, went to his place and slack..keke..nothing much oso..

so fast, graduation soon..july 14..gonna see all my buddies again!..either see them wearing their smart 4 or wear formal..hahahaa..tickets are provided, but i nid some more..prolly 1 or 2..nah, my baby cant go..in camp, rehearsal..sobs..cant see me graduate..haha..was hoping he could come..so, asking fat and patsy go..see lo..eh, i hinting liao..haha..ANYONE TIX FREE, GIMME CAN CAN?..PWEASE PWEASE ok?..keke..

this week, 2 of my fwenz going in tekong liaoz..hehaha..fri's tiong, sat's ah chan..hmmz, nex week, wei's turn..awww...no more guys ard liaoz..i think..all army liaoz..good luck manz!..gam ba te ar buddies!!..keke..see ya all soon wor~!!..

tk care peeps..chao~!!..

*janey..i noe wad's the word u dislyk liao..hahhaa..its starts wit a "w" and ends wit a "r"...come to think of it, i jus mentioned it awhile ago!!!..hahahaa..*

*pat..the tag u reply me, seems scary..pls tell me dere's nothing going on...*

*fat..u go shopping wit chew chew, neva jio me..now wan go swimming wit chew chew, oso no jio!!..hmph..i still jio u go Eski Bar!..keke..bleah..*

*dear..i miss you.. :( ..gonna miss u even more when nex week comes..sobs..ur final exercise..jiayou ok..even if u haf an appointment during the exercise, do ur best k..see you real soon this week..muacks!..miss you sooo much..love you..*

...beauty exposed ;

Thursday, May 26, 2005

bored..boring..super boring..damn boring..ARGH!!..

wonder if i've missed the SIA interview, or they haven send, or was it my MAILBOX FULL and i cant receive?!!..this is killing me manz..wait so long le..alamakz..dunno wad shld i do sia..grrrr...dun flood my mail pwease..hehe..

well well..Carrie Underwood crowned American Idol..whoo~..seriously, i din notice her at the beginning..cuz i was noticing Vonzell Solomon..she reminds me of Whitney Housten..but too bad, she's came up 3rd..speaking of Carrie, i love her song man..its gonna come out in June 14..dunno why, the song jus caught my attention.."Inside Your Heaven"..its nice..lyrics, i love it..hear it if u peeps haf the chance..heh..(promoting??)..

met up wit my ex colleagues at Soup restaurant on wednesday..it was 1 of my colleague's last day..so, met up wit ac, bryan, ben, jessica, sharon, cindy and new event asst, yanyi..poor gurl, she oso cant stand the stress..she's gonna quit soon too..whaha..cynthia tendered, sharon tendered, now, cindy's gonna tender soon..way to go man~!..i support..haha..guess wad..the lunch was supposed to be splitted up by ben and ac..BUT BUT BUT!..toopid, ungentleman, impolite AC ask us to pay him back in the middle of century sq!..how toopid was tt?!!..i was pretty pissed cuz he's a guy!!..he earn very lil' mehz?!...muz tk $$ frm GIRLS!!..wa lau~..super pissed me off..another thing was, dere was this company dinner..and ktv after tt..tt mth was in Feb..noe wad?..this buay paiseh guy, emailed my fwen..and ask if me and cindy could pay him back 26 bucks cuz of the ktv and he's low in cash!!..wa lau!!!!..seriously, if he wan the $$, i will gladly gif..i will THROW!!..nabei...neva come across this kinda buay paiseh guy..PUI!!..somemore its sharon jie's last day, CANT U TREAT!..U TOOPID GAY!!..U'RE A MANAGER LEI!!..U SELFISH BOAR!!..PUI!!..SEE YOU NO UP!!..

pisses me off manz!..heh..this has been a slow week..hmmz..dear's outfield, i've not been feeling well, low in cash, waiting fer the toopid interview, been super sleepy..argh~..

alrighty, tk care peeps..

*bitching mates, i'll see you guys soon k..*

*dear, i miss you lots..*

...beauty exposed ;

Sunday, May 22, 2005

whoo~..J.B was fun but the weather wasnt..alamakz..1st time i took 170 to woodlands!..oh my sheesh..super long journey ride manz..almost wanna vomit cuz of the long journey and the jerking..but i lasted..yeah..hehe..

reached woodlands at ard 3 plus?..but we had to wait for some other fwenz..AND~..they arrived at ard 4 plus?..so, 13 of us..headed into J.B..by the time we got in, ard 5 plus 6 le..alot of ppl going back too..but we're quite lucky at the customs, everything went swiftly and things done are faster..so, 1st stop..VCD shop..wah.....all the new shows come out le..so, the guys went to ask if they could deliver or something..and yeah, can ar..i think 50 pcs..so, each has 10 to choose..wheE~..i started choosing the newest show..dear oso searched..finally, after spending abt hr plus at the shop, frantically searching for shows..me and dear stopped searching..we had 12 Vcds/Dvds, 3 Pc Games..a total of 202RM!!..wa lau..1st time i spent 100 bucks on Vcds manz!!..whoo~..calculate, calculate, 13 ppl..a total of 700RM!!..piangz..haha..we're raiding ourselves wit all the Vcds man..haha..well, some had to change $$..dear changed another 50, jus in case we not enough..well, nex stop, CitySquare..

CitySquare, F.O.S..a shop i seldom will miss going whenever step into J.B..but i did!!..whaha..*proud*..i din not step in F.O.S, searching for clothes!..even went Reject SHop, and i din buy anything..went up to the highest level, their's machiam lyk Singapore's Heeren, The Annex lidat..BUT, i din buy anything wor..haha..it was the GUYS tt were happily buying!..gosh..haha..world change liao..his fwen kept buying and buying lyk he revenging for all the previous mths he din go lidat..keke..yeah, they bot..by the way, we all spilt up la..siao meh..13 ppl walk together..haha..i was wit dear *duh~*, and his 3 other fwenz..yupz, all of them bot..including dear..he bot a polo tee which i lyk it..haha..quite cheap la..keke..ok, shop shop..really nothing to buy lei..hmm..

gathered back at 9pm..surprise to see all the gurls din buy manz..as wad they said, guys won over the gurls this time..hmmz, i told dear "go back singapore shop den u noe.."..and he pretended he dunno..hmph..haha..yea..makan time..went down to Sri Terbau..haha..my usual place..and oso, usual stall..auntie's still dere..still as loud..haha..ordered alot..i had a sumptous dinner..had the biggest sugarcane drink..haha..but cant finish and kept going to the loo..man..those drink are shioks..keke..stayed dere to chat till abt 11 plus and we headed out..to hail for cabbies..but dun haf..but ar..this uncle came by and helped us call another 3 more cabs..
i told dear he reminded me of Uncle Teng..hahahhaa..but the older version..hahah..he called all his khakis down..back to Causeway..bot ciggys for pat, bot gums fer dad & mum..all was well, when we went thru the customs..din check bag too..*oh goodie!*..

somemore, i put 2 packets of gums into dear's bag..haha..i din mean it..sorry, i forgot, muz scan bag..haha..took 170 back, walk back to dear's place..came back to my place..by then, i was tired liao..took a hot shower, zZzZzZZzZZ.....keke..dear promised the nex time we go J.B, we'll shop mad..me buy clothes and shoes~..whee~...yeah!..

take care peeps..

chao~!!..

*i had fun..i did..it felt great wit standing beside you cuz you really took care of me..even the rain, you tried to shield me off by your "BIG" hand..haha..but, i really felt secured..thankew~!..i wun walk alone by myself when i'm in J.B..i wun..promise you..love you dear..muacks..*

...beauty exposed ;

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

days pass so quickly, its May le..haiz..dunno wad i've been doing..feeling shioks yet unhappy..slacked fer 2 mths or more le..yet, i'm only concentrating on airline..wad the hell am i thinking..argh~..shld find a part-time job le..lost mine at SB-BG..thank God i quitted cuz the atmosphere dere now, is not the usual SB-BG anymore..felt so weird, out of place..although i was the pioneer batch..wad to do..i wanted to quit..accept it..hah..

haf been waiting fer my final interview wit SIA..i dunno when is it, cuz they said they'll send thru email..wait lo..but till now, not a single mail except junks..argh~..this is killing me..haf received many good lucks frm fwenz..and it really comforted me alot..i noe they support me lots..thanx peeps!..wait wait wait..i've to wait fer email..hopefully it wun crash wit my j.b trip this week..if not, gua gua gua~..haiz..keke..

its been 3 mths..a total of 12 weeks..wit my dear..things haf been going fine..sometimes i get cranky, i get crazy..fer no reason..whaha..i'm this crazy..often making him worried fer me..cuz i owaes go out till late nite..i noe he's worried abt my safety..but, this is the way i am..i love to go out till late..this is me..hmm..really am hoping tt we'll go thru together..although pat said something to me when we were at SB-BG..kinda contradicting tho..u're rite, weekends..i'm busy wit him, spending time wit him..weekdays, i'm very free..u asked me before, if i could accept this kinda life, and i told u i can..i'm still going on..i'm still hanging on..its jus tt witout a job, everything's sucky..argh~..i nid to do something..damn~..

he's been very patient wit me..he's been dere fer me..he's been dere to push me, to advise me, to gif me suggestions, to help me make decisions..i'm seriously grateful tt he's in my life..supporting me in wadever i wanna do..especially my dream..but sometimes, i jus go cranky..yupz, i went missing again..switching my hp off, going to a place tt i love to go..wit the sea, and wind..he was worried sick..yet, i still din tell him where was i..he called my buddy, called home..but no one noes where i was..till i told him and he found me..gifing me water to drink, food to eat..my fav. cheesecake..i wasnt angry wit him for wad he said..i was jus super disappointed in myself..i'm such...argh~~..wad the hell am i doing..

niwae, peeps..tk care..i'm feel down whenever i talk abt this..damn!

chao~!!..

*pat...i noe things arent going rite fer you and you feel lost..hang in dere if u really wanna establish this r/s..if it doesnt go the way u wan, he's at a loss..not u..cuz u're a great person to be wit..i noe efforts put in by u is alot, alot..i dun wanna see ur efforts going down the drain, to someone tt doesnt appreciate it..someone else out dere can and will appreciate this kinda effort..stop fer awhile, hang on to ur directions..u've me..u've ur fwenz..dun feel shy in calling me, be it in the middle of the nite, or early morning..dun feel paiseh in calling me to go out..dun~..i will be dere fer you if u nid me..dun feel paiseh ok?..we can go shopping, we can go ZOO, we can go sentosa, we can go beach, we can go makan, we can go bitching session wit janey, we can go sing song talk c**k..ok?..gimme a call if u nid someone to talk to..although it seems lyk u're more mature in these kinda things..but, i'm all ears!!..keke..love ya babe..wadever decision u make, bear in mind tt i support u..muacks..

*dear..u've been a pillar of support..i love you, jus the way you are..and i will hang on for you..i noe sometimes, i'm crazy, i'm cranky..pls dun leave me alone and ignore me..dun believe me when i tell u i dun wanna hug u..dun believe me when i tell u i dun wanna kiss u..i've come to this stage of my life whereby i wanna commit myself to you; to this r/s..i noe its tough, its not easy..but i'm willing to try..i noe u're planning fer the future, although i told u i'm afraid of the future, u've given me the assurance tt you wan the future to happen..i will hang on, i will go on..for you, jus you, only you..i love you very much..aint gonna gif u up..pinky promise..muacks!..*hugs*..*

...beauty exposed ;

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

yes YEs YES!!!..i made it~!!!..i made it through!!!..me!!..made it through~!!..whaha..

well, got to SIA training centre at 0830am..early rite..piangz..heng i wasnt formally dressed..some gurls even wore jeans..hmmz..well, they brought us to a room to wear the kebaya..wa piangz..damn tight lor..really is a bust booster manz..whaha..but it surely felt great..really great..met up wit justine too..hmmz, din talk much to her oso la..i was no. 31..fat's fav no...heng ar..this time, no. nicer den Emirates de..phew~..well, got us to line up and go into the interview room where dere were 2 interviewers..hmmz, 1 looked lyk air stewardess but she's not lei..she's someone frm lancome..another one, jus looked ordinary..wa..stressed..wore the SIA shoes, went into the room..

ask me to walk frm 1 corner to another, den put my hands str8 out, cuz they wanna check for scars la..heng ar~~..janey's scratches went off manz..haha..den she lifted up my hair, look at my ears i think..den she lifted up my fringe, den she ask me to turn ard, look at my back, turn back, look at her..and SMILE~~~...den finish liaoz..

got changed, went back to my seat..till everyone finish, they announced the no. tt got through..FAT, UR NO. IS LUCKY~~..they started calling out..1 by 1...until 28, den 31~~!!!..whoo~!!..whee~!!..i got through!!..haha..out of 33 ladies, 17 got through..they slash half manz..but justine din get through, she din even say a bye to me when she left..she jus left lidat..why sia..haiz..fwenz oso become lidat..sadz..niwae, we went upstairs for another test..a psychometric test..

i tot wad, but its jus a test to see ur behaviour, ur personality lor..hmmz, quite true lei..but, no right or wrong ans..after the test, we went fer lunch..made some new fwenz..heh..yupz, after tt, went to the lobby to slack abit before changing into swimming gear..was kinda excited..haha..after tt, went up to the swimming area..

oh my sheesh~~!!..fake airplane, super deep pool (4m), super deep navy color, machiam lyk sea..nabei~..haha..went up to the fakey plane, took off everything except swimming gear la..took a life jacket, sat down in the fakey plane, listen for instructions, dere goes the jumping!!..

i was the 2nd last to jump..cuz no. 31 ma..haha..fun manz~!..swim backstroke back..shioks..after tt, changed, went back to the lobby for further instructions..well, everyone got through lor..phew~..hafta wait to see when's the nex interview..its wit the upper management ppl..wit those bosses, chairmans, presidents, blah blah..same thing, will be elimintated if they feel we're not suited..*pray pray*..

yea, i made it..super duper happy..whaha..tk care peeps~!!..

*i made it..i made it through to the final one..i did it..i gave my best..are u still supporting me?..really wun regret ma?..i'll gif it my best shot once again at the final..i will..for you, for mummy, for daddy, for all my fwenz..i will..i noe you will be dere for me..i love you darling..thankew for being soo supportive..i miss you millions..wish i could share this good news wit you..but u're outfield..muacks..*

...beauty exposed ;

Saturday, May 07, 2005

today's weekends le!!!...whheee~!!..and yes, my SIA interview..i'm sooo happy~!!..why??..why???..CUZ I GOT THROUGH!!!...whee~~!!!..

dear was supposed to be in camp but i dunno wad he did, he booked out early in the morning..hmmmz, he said he change his shift wit someone, his shift under reserve..so, he book out..hahaha..tt's my baobei~..keke..

gonna head out and meet my buddies later..whoo~..yay, i'm sooo happy now..whahhaa..thanks peeps, for supporting me..whee~..its great to haf all ur lucks and all ur supports..i'm full of confidence again..yay~..

tk care peeps, love ya all~!!..keke..

chao~!!..

*i love you!..thankew for giving me all ur support..i noe i'm super lucky to haf all ur support..keke..i love you!!..*huggies*..cant wait to see you soon~..mmmuuacks!!..*

...beauty exposed ;

Monday, May 02, 2005

fun fun FUN and MORE FUN!..i had a hell of a fun weekend manz!!..keke..

fRi: yupz yupz, bitching sessions are back!..whoo!!..met up wit my bitching mates and we went on chatting and bitching till 2am plus..whee~..super shioks to mit up wit them..we owaes come out wit the craziest topics to talk and we'll jus laff our hearts out..*see ya all babes again ya..good luck for the examz!*..

sAt: poor dear only managed to book out at 6am..but, we din mit up till late noon..i had a wedding~~..whaha..my sec sch teacher's wedding..darn, she looked soooo pretty lor..she is filled wit happiness and love in her life..whaha..well, she used to be a strict teacher, scolds us, laff wit us..aww~..those were the days..met up wit my sec 5.1 classmates..all changed manz..i din talk much cuz, i not sociable de la..jus chat among fat, linda and shuhua..ceremony was damn sweet and nice..buay tahanz..heh..i told fat, the flowers tying to the seats, i wan real flowers and it'll be cream tulips..whahhaa..she agree wit me..keke..videoed the ceremony..lil' flower gurl, lil' ring boy, lil' bible boy..so CUTE!!..man!!..and pretty bride..aww~...was very happy fer her..haha..left the church ard 4pm, head down to cityhall to mit up wit dear..fat came along, as she was waiting fer jolene..fat bot her present, i headed down to suntec to mit up wit dear's fwenz..fat headed down to chalet..met up wit his fwenz, headed to Olio Dome..wow, nice atmosphere..expensive food lei..hmmmz...total of 10 ppl..whoa..each brought gfs..nice pasta, nice steak..all nice..eat till full full..one of his fwen went to buy cake fer another fwen..celebrated at Sky Garden lo..dear played some gong gong rope game wit me..hmph..keke..after tt, headed down to bugis to a cafe..Oasis Board Game Cafe..wa lau..all the board games, i neva see before de..but anyway, we played this card game and the loser will hafta do pumping..well, of cuz we gals haf the privilege la..the game rules are..the more cowheads u haf, u're the loser..so, even if we gals haf cowheads, it all goes to the guys..poor dear..haha..he did a total of 70 push-ups..1st was 30 pushups..2nd was 40..alamakz..hahaha..not my fault hor..is suay suay tio all the cowheads de..we had a hell of a time manz..haha..shifted our place to the sofa seats..and we played Jenga Truth/Dare..wa lau!!..play until 39 stacks lor..guys were very amazed by us gurls..yea..rule was: if the tower falls, the dare/truth tt u're holding, the BF of the gurl will hafta do it..whaha..so funny..dear videoed us, took pix of us..had a fun time laffing..hee..headed back home to tk my stuffs before we end the day at dear's place..

sUn: wanted to go fer bfast but too late..hah..too tired la..bo bian..fat wanted to borrow camera frm us cuz she's heading down to Esplanade for outdoor concert..ok lo, dear and i headed down to cityhall funan to look for his stuffs..dun haf lor..den headed to a vcd shop and bot vcds..i bot Shutter..he bot Oceans Eleven and Twelve..went to control station to mit up wit fat and ferlin..as usual, fat psycho me to go wit them..told dem i would join them after i go home..reach home, slack awhile before heading back to dear's place for dinner..his mummy cooked pork chops..yum yum..nice nice..full dinner, headed down to Esplanade to mitup wit the gals..fat told me dere was fireworks at 0930pm ma..and i LOVE fireworks ma..off we went, met up wit them..wanted to tk boat ride, but too many peeps le..so, watch fireworks lo..almost 5 mins of fireworks..love it..after tt, bong and another fwen came down..decided to head to C.A.N Cafe for drinks..walked dere, laff my way dere sia..cuz dear was cracking me up wit his funny stuffs..hahaha..ordered Beer lo..long time no drink ma..heh..dewei and another fwen joined us..a total of 8 peeps..played 99..forfeit the person who lost..
1st loser: fat..forfeit: stand up and play the game..(dear's idea)..
2nd loser: ME!!..forfeit: squat on the sofa and play the game..(dear's idea again..)..
3rd loser: cant rem..
4th loser: cant rem.....
i noe dear lost a lot of times..hahaha..1st forfeit was to sit at the toilet area andplay the game..2nd forfeit was to stand at the fake banana tree..so cute..3rd time, he lost again..and another forfeit..i forget le la..after tt, he came up wit the outrageous forfeit..loser go toilet bowl and sit..whahaha..dewei lost..haha..so cute..after dewei lost, ferlin lost..again, sit at the toilet bowl..bong lost, bong had to kiss the fake coconut tree..2nd time she lost, she had to do duck walk..bong's fwen lost, and she had to carry a dustbin and squat down play..2nd time she lost, she had to carry a table and play..whahaha..dewei's fwen lost, he had to KISS all the dusty posters hanging on the wall..whahhaha..super funny..2nd time he lost, he had to sit at the other end of the hall..whahaha..dewei lost again, he had to lie face flat on the floor and ferlin step on him..hahahha..i lost, i had to dance to RnB song..alamakz..keke..ferlin had to kiss herself cuz she lost twice..bong lost at the 2nd last round and we've to hit her ear..dewei's fwen lost and he had to be kicked in the butt!!..wahahaha..we really had a hell of a time..i noe fat couldnt stop laffing..keep laffing and laffing..shioks..left the place ard 2am..i headed back to dear's place to slp..end of my day...

mOn: time flies..dear gotta book in today liaoz..haiz..din go out today, but we had our desired bfast..Mac's bfast!!..after tt, walked back home and slacked at home the whole day..played scrabble, watched vcd, made sure dear studied fer his test/survey, drank green bean soup (nice!), had my noon nap, watched tv..left his place ard 7 plus for prata..dad came to fetch me at the prata place and send dear to his camp..*bye dear*..now, at home slacking..whaha..

preparing myself for the interview on sat..shioks..coming liaoz..heh..dunno how's it gonna be lyk..but wit everyone's support, i'll do my best..

dear cant come out this sat cuz he has guard duty..hmmm..sobs sobs..well, i'll see wat programs ba..hmmm..*help..*..keke..oh well, gonna end my day wit my beauty slp..tk care peeps..

chao~!!..

*thankew for this weekend..i really enjoyed myself alot alot..thankew for making me laff foolishly, laff to my heart's content, laff to the extent..keke..love you lots lots..i'll see you on sunday ya..tk goodie care of urself and good luck for ur survey/test..muacks muacks..gonna miss you lots le..wish me luck for my interview..i love you~..*

...beauty exposed ;