...Lost In Beauty...

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

cant believe!..i cant believe it!..oh my gosh!..oh my gosh!..i've been shortlisted for SIA interview..and the interview's nex week!..holly mollies!..keke..was feeling excited ar..haha..wonder how izzit gonna be lyk..well, amazingly..i'm not alone..wei's jasmine oso got the interview..we'll be going together lo..keke..*luck luck, come my way....*..

hmmz..been reading my Final Theory book..argh..read and read..luckily i've my dear to keep pushing me to study, 'threatening' me..hahaha..(in good ways, not bad ar..)..he keeps pushing me to study and even called his instructor in the middle of the nite to ask qn tt we werent sure!..sheesh!!..*muacks, thankew dear*..

future : the time yet to come, the indefinite time yet to come..

thinking of this word, sometimes it scares me..oh well, still hafta faced it..hah..he can see a future in us, but..i'm still afraid..i dunno y..i'm committing myself into this..but future still scares me..its ok ba, i noe i haf him by my side..he'll be dere fer me..keke..

nothing much over this week..jus plain reading FTT book..argh~..am i slacking or wad sia..haha..k la..tk care peeps..till den~!..

chao~!!..

*i'm sorry i gave u cold feet..i din mean to..i wan to see the future, i wan to see it happen..u haf so much confidence, but sometimes, i'm scared..i'm sorry..i din mean to..u noe me..muacks..i love you..*

...beauty exposed ;

Sunday, April 24, 2005

still down wit bad flu...notty flu..argh~...2 weeks le..still not well..wats wrong wit me..wats wrong???argh....

was shopping ard in town..went to mit dear at heeren..met up wit his sistas fer sushi..den headed down to four seasons hotel fer "tea" session?..hmm..was kinda ok..until fat called and chatted awhile..on my way to p.s, met up wit some of my fwenz..hmm..julian, churchmate frm GIBC..even met up wit jean-ann..whoo~..pretty babe wor..she's supposed to be a teacher de..but she broke the bond..paid fer the bond $$..haha..richkid.com..ekeke..

went up to pacific plaza..was feeling kinda uneasy at the shop..felt tt i was being STARED at..well, was i rite???..ask me all abt it manz..hah..jus ask me..and i can tell u..went downstairs to another shop..again..i felt strange..was i being STARED?..jus ask me..hah..

rite on, dear asked me wad happened..my face was moody..yupz, i was pek cek..i was PISSED..but i din tell him..i dunno y..i jus swallow it down..swallow it down and down..how much he asked me..i jus tell him i felt someone STARED at me..din mention much after tt..din wanna spoil the mood either..soon, i swallow it wholly and enjoyed myself wit him..

knowing he's by my side, tt's all tt matters..he brought me to esplanade..to chocolate bar..BUT..no seats..hmm, change lo..went to Haagen Daz fer chocolate fondue!!!..sheesh..tt was superly sinful and superly nice~!!!..wit balls of ice cream (choco, strawberry, macadamia nuts!!), fruits and nuts..sinful~...nice...slurp..damn nice~..simply love it..somemore i ate it wit my baby!..keke...

damn nice...keke..*thankew dear*..after tt, went down to P.S to mit up wit fatz and linda..i dunno y, but dear hear wrongly..call her name "peter"..whahaa..watched "guess who"..ok la..average show..funny lo..linda laff until she lyk kana asthma lidat..keke..after show, headed down to Mr Beans fer supper..ate abit only..baby ordered chix chop..quite nice..by the time i reach home, oredi ard 4am..buay tahan le..slp all the way..even dear oso cant tahan le..

missed our bfast on sunday morning..hmm..woke up only at 12.30++..prepared, left fer cityhall fer lunch..headed back to his place..alamakz..all the way, pump me wit FTT..alamakz..its on thurs..argh~..i will study..hmph..dear says it'll be my very last time booking the FTT..if i fail again, dun book le..until he feels tt i'm ready and prepared..hmph!..

i dun care..i wan my car plate no. SLX..hmph!!..cuz....SiLinXu..hahaha..cool rite?..keke..he book in early today..so, i went down to northpoint to mit up wit mummy daddy..went ang mo kio fer dinner..headed back home..had a little chat wit my fwenz..nice chat..keke..thankew..u noe who u are..thankew..

alrighty..tk care peeps..catch up some time..

chao~!..

*i'm sorry..i dun wanna make u worry..i dun wanna disappoint u..i'm sorry..i noe wad matters now is I HAF YOU..I HAF YOU by my side, I HAF YOU in my life, I HAF YOU in every ways, I HAF YOU in everything..love you love you love you!..keke..i cant do witout you..when you said to me "you cant live witout me"..i hear le, i was really sooo happy..thankew baobei..thankew fer everything..muacks..see you soon..looking forward to your nex booking out..cuz i noe you'll crack me up wit all ur sillyness and crazy jokes..keke..i'm so happy you're included in my life..muacks..*

...beauty exposed ;

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

damn~...i failed..i failed..argh~..i failed my 2nd interview..alamakz..wad happened sia..hmm, oh well..i learned and gain some knowledge..nex time apply again ba..heh..was introduced to another job by them too..SO, Haach and Emirates are linked together..AND~..Haach and FIL are linked too~..haha..

AND~..Haach and FIL are local companies..hmm..yea, was intro another job by them lo..in beauty line..as a Customer Relation Executive..i dunno wad the heck la..but i noe salary is super low..haiz..wad to do..tml, i'm going fer the interview and will see how..as wad dear said, if i dun lyk, reject it..haiz..he's been soooo supportive, dunno wad i'll do witout him..

niwae, i've been sick..down wit flu fer abt 1 week ++ le..damn~..dunno wads wrong..and i feel horrible..or izzit the tobacco doing the job..hahhaha...wats wrong wit me manz?!!!..

feel lyk hafing a holiday..but, arent i hafing "holidays" now?..haha..i'm getting bored le..prolly gonna study soon...see how ba..cant wait till dear comes out again..he's been cracking me wit all his dumb + gong gong jokes..heh..okok, enuff of him..heh..

nothing much to write abt..jus miss enjoying life..cant even go fer a short getaway..damn~..everything's going xianz xianz xianz..argh~..hate this..hate wat i'm doing now~..interview gone~..gonna try again ba..

tk care peeps, dun fall sick..catch up soon..miss ya all~..

my bitching mates, see u guys soon ya..tk care, good luckie fer exams..i'm jus a call away if u nid me..

fat, thanks fer everything..you're great..i lub you~!!..

chao~!..

*i miss you so much..argh~..i need you.. :( ..*

...beauty exposed ;

Monday, April 11, 2005

tired ar..here goes..~

fRiDaY: shopping~..or shld i say.. RETAIL THERAPY..craps..keke..shopped and shopped till i spent abt 140..piangz..40 on C.C lo..wa..shiong..went to buy tops and shooes...coolz..wa..cannot see shoes wit those 2 babes..will go super crazy..they'll jus walk ard the ENTIRE shop lyk machiam its THEIRS!!..piangz~~!!..keke..but it was fun..heh..after tt, bitching session lo..keke..nothing special but we had special members ya!..keke..we had sinting and bernard..whoo~..hell of a chat and laffters manz..as usual, ordered our drinks, Fatz ate her pasta..dunno y she jus love the pasta wit the white wine sauces..hmmmz..keke..left early ar..1st time lei..we leave super early lor!..why?!..cuz janey has lessons on sat, fatz tired and she nid to go Pulau Ubin on sat, nothing wrong wit pat, and me?!..gonna mit dear at fullerton..he has his formation dinner thingy lo..thanx to bernard fer sending me to fullerton..heh..thanx janey babe!..*muacks*...tried locating him when i was at fullerton..couldnt see him until pat told me..haha..janey was kinda excited lidat..even say she saw handsome ones..(yao si ar u..whaha..)..she mentioned something lyk "eh, very nice uniform"..or something..i jus said thanks and off i went le..whoa..dear's uniform indeed is suave wor..keke..i lyk some weed grass lidat lei..whaha..he lyk oasis kinda feeling, i lyk weed grass..keke..*kidding*..niwae, waited for his fwenz to come out from the carpark..and it took lyk prolly 20 mins?..long lor..hmm..talk talk, his fwenz came..send us back to home-sweet-home..he changed and went out for supper..(did we?)..heh..went back home after tt..

sAtuRdAy: woke up, went bank..felt so bad when he couldnt get his DBS atm card done cuz it was closed le!!..ah doi~..only managed to do his UOB..alamakz..sala timing..heh..took my passport fotos, my stuffs..went fer lunch..off to Grand Corpthorne WaterFront hotel for Emirates interview...hmmm..reach dere at 15.45pm, took the application form, ka-po pen frm the lady in charge and neva return her..heh..went into the Holding room to wait while dear waited outside fer me..awww~..he accompany me..heh...went into the interview room wit 10 ppl..seated us in a semi circle..interviewer introduced, and told us to discuss a topic among ourselves and will evaluate frm dere..topic of the day: "challenges u'll face when u're stationed in Dubai"..dere goes this malay gurl, blabbering abt culture, language..all the political stuffs..whaha..was thinking to myself..siao liao, wad i wanna say..she say liao..another malay gurl copied wad she said but rephrase it, change the way of saying..alamakz..somemore liaoz fer me..den i speak..and mind u..its an open discussion!!..not pin-point of wad..and i jus say "i think its gonna be interesting..interesting in a way of their dressing..wad they're wearing is so different frm singaporeans..wonder if they haf nite life lyk we do..keke.."..yeap, tt's wad i said and did..another 2 ladies started to speak..wa..lady beside me, came out wit those chim words tt i can neba noe wad is it unless i check in dictionary..dun even mention abt the spelling..whoo~..chim..interviewer stopped us, 5 ladies din manage to speak..interviewer told us to wait outside fer results..went out, sat down..think to myself.."liao la..they so chim..haiz..dere goes...."..lady came out frm room, said " we haf only 1 shortlisted candidate..and she's Xu SiLin..alright, the rest of u can leave and thankew fer ur application"..WAT THE HELL??!!!..its lyk the day when i won a "jing ma jiang" lidat lor!!..wa!!!!!!..hahaha..she gave me a interview form, telling me to come back on 18th, dress smartly..formal..argh~..lyk biz wear..tml, come back fer a briefing session..tt's tt..wa~!!..i went to search fer my dear lor!!..he came by me..and i told him "guess wad?".."only shortlisted 1 in the grp"..and he said "serious??!!"..i was so paiseh..cuz the ladies were looking at me lor..piangz..went out of the hotel, while telling dear wad happened in the room...went out to the bus-stop, 1 malay gurl smile at me..another 2 at traffic light, i paiseh..i turn away..immediately call daddy..and he was happy wit it..told fatz oso!..cuz she was the one who reminded me to go!!..whoo~!!..went to but movie tix for nite show.."the pacifier"..eh, funny la..funny..touching too..nice..shld watch..hehe..RECOMMENDED?..keke..
went to mit his jie-fu..recky some internet lan shops, prices, games..at parklane..after tt, headed to a vegetarian restaurant to makan wit his sistas..talked abt my stewardess, told me wad to do..even asked "wad if ppl chase u?"..speechless, dunno wad to ans..hmmmzz...went fer movie, after movie, went down to lau pat sat to mit up wit his fwenz..ate a little before i declare tired..headed back home, drove me home..went back to his place..zZzZz...

sUnDaY: woke up wit sinus..damn..went down to Grand Corpthorne..was late but wasnt late..haha..IN time..hehe..sat down, wanna slp liaoz..but sit str8, remian posture.."ai-shey~!!"..whaha..listened throughout the whole briefing..hafing second thoughts..haiz..well, bottom line of the briefing..posture, the way u talk, project urself, self-confidence is wad the recruitment officers frm Emi. will look in..and oso, i realize..DUN BE A SMARTY-ALEC..BE URSELF!!..as wad they say in hokkien, "kiang diu ho, mai kay kiang~!!"..whaha..went out, look fer dearie..called fatz fer help..heh..thanx to her manz..told her, if i really pass, will treat her..she's the one..thanx fatz..dunno how to thank u..keke..went to Far East for lunch, head on to Centrepoint to shop abit..went P.S, went home..tired le..really tired..went mustafa buy his stuffs, went home..super tired and hot~!!..took noon nap, till evening..had dinner, he got ready to book in..took cabbie to his camp, den back home..talk to mummy and daddy abt the job..mummy very sick..hope she'll be ok soon..daddy sick too..haiz..both sick..well, i'm tired..tk care peeps..

chao~!..wish me bestest of luck~..keke..

*thankew fer ur support..u're so supportive..i'm very much comforted..thankew fer ur letta..its really sweet..i'll rem the 7 words tt you wrote down..not tt i cant bear to leave you, i noe you can be on ur own..its jus my parents..the tot of leaving them behind, makes me super sad..esp. mummy..i'm afraid of being a burden to you, not being able to accompany you, to see you..i'm afraid i'll drag you down..but after wad u said in the cabbie, it really comforts me..rem our pinky promise..i'll rem wad you said..your assurance..i will hang on, i will be independent, i will work hard, i will go on wit my dream..i love you dear..thankew....so much..i love you, so so much..muacks..*

...beauty exposed ;

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

wednesday liaoz..my my, time flies..caught up wit my budds, learnt tt 1 is gonna pass out soon liaoz..another gonna post out liaoz..whoo~..time flies..guess wad?..i slack fer 6 mths liaoz..haha...not fully 6 mths but ard 5 mths lidat..piangz~!!..wad the fish am i doing sia!..keke..though fwenz of mine say i'm enjoying..but nah..i'm not lor..haiz..i've been sending resumes and applications manz..

guess my JAL application is not successful..*damn!*..i'm still waiting fer SIA and Emirates..haha..Emirates ok..i decide liaoz..all send la..wun be so heng de..if kana, den good~!!..keke..thanks to Fatz for calling me 3 times in a row, each at 1 min today for telling me Emirates is hiring cabin crew and dere's an interview going on on sat..*thankx fatz*..heh..paiseh la..i was tired..slept very early today..yea, 9am..keke..*oops*..

went out for supper last nite..and guess who it was?..ah tiong..i dunno y, he came down to find me..he was kinda moody ar..eyes red red, tot he cried sia..heh..even msg wei and tell him abt it..guess tiong needed a company ba..ate prata den sat dere awhile..talking and talking..advised him abit lor..based on my experience..whaha..in a woman's point of view..whaha..i muz be kidding..keke..wei told me to say some sense into him..ok lor..hee..talked fer awhile before prata shop gonna close..went back to my place downstairs to chat chat..chat until abt 4.45am, he left..i couldnt slp..went online, search for jobs lor..haha..i read 2 books eh!..read finish ok!..until 9am, i try to slp ar..if not, siao liaoz..really slp..2 hrs later, haha..fatz called le..wa..she very persistant..called me consecutively 3 times!!!..wa..buay tahan sia..i noe its her, jus tt dunno wad she wanna do nia..din pick up her call..too tired le..till i msg her, and she replied back..*paiseh fatz*..

emirates emirates..hmmm, wonder shld i go fer it anot..the interview at the hotel..*wonder*..alrighty, it has been THIS much these few days..tk care peeps..till den...

chao~!!..

*i've been alrighty, guess i was kinda moody due to the application thingy..thanx fer ur tolerance..i noe how irritating i can get..but i'm alrighty..really..dunno wad happened to u on sunday, dunno y u said all tt to me..i hope u're feeling betta le..tk gd care of urself when u're in dere..i miss you lots and i'll see you very soon..muacks..P.S*

...beauty exposed ;

Sunday, April 03, 2005

friday has been great!..haha..met my babes fer coffee/tea at our usual place again..but tis time, earlier le..cuz they all haf their own love homes to go..whahaha..so, we all sat..chat our gossips..heh..gurls..they will die not gossiping..haha..*oops*

nigel came by CC to look for me..whaha..tt BOTAK!..so cute wit his botak style..hmm..he's tanned le..but lyk size wise, still the same lei..he say he fat le..got tummy..whaha..he sat awhile wit us, before heading back to his ktv pub wit his bunkmates..after he left, janey buay tahan oredi..wanna koonz oredi..so, she called her bernard to fetch her back home..while patsy nidded to go yishun..left me!..haha..no la..i was waiting fer dear too..he book out early..so, came down to town to mit me..oh well..ard 10++, dear came..sat wit us awhile lo..den bernard came too..foot the bill, chao oredi..janey went off wit bernard..*duhZ*..patsy went to mrt station..to yishun again..keke..me and dear went to emerald to wait fer his fwenz to fetch us to lau pat sat..fer supper..

reach le..his usual bunch of ocs fwenz lor..wa..we ordered stingray, satay and alot of satay, ard 60 sticks of satay, la-la, mee goreng..wa..shioks manz..talk talk talk, they chat chat..tell me things lor..until abt 2am, we left fer home..ah hoe send us back home..so paiseh, to tamp lei..somemore he lives at yishun dere..haiz..tho, TPE near my hse dere ar...paiseh lei..reach home, bathe watch tv..heh..sadz..dear booking in on sat cuz he got live firing on sun!!..alamakz..keke..so, slept throughout the nite..

sat..left my place ard 1pm to go bugis gai gai..ate mos-burger..den shopped abit before heading down to mustafa to buy his stuffs..at his place, fatz msg me..ask if i wanna mit her and chewling at orchard..ok lo, mit them..since dear's booking in le ma..so, ard 645pm, we left le..dear took a cabbie by himself to his camp, while i took cabbie down to centrepoint..wa...orchard really alot of ppl..buay tahan..heh..went to cineleisure fer dinner at pastamania..whoo..shioks..eat oredi, shop la..whaha..wad else can we do sia..went hmv, shop shop..wanna buy liaoz..heh..wait fer my salary..after tt, abit tired liaoz..somemore ard 945 le..went to CC again!..hahahaha..

tot can drink tea, but those 2 babes wanna go home early..so, ok lor..chat chat..till dear called..haiz..cant be wit me on sat at orchard..he say he felt f**ked up cuz its a sat and he's supposed to be wit me..keke..poor baby..after awhile, we left fer home..took cab..haha..toopid fatz singing the p.i.m.p song..make me laff until cry..my tissue was 1/3 wet!!..wa lau..couldnt stop laffing wit her in the cab..but ar..funny, chewling din laff de..she all the way slping..hehe..guess she muz be very tired..cuz fatz sang almost alot of times!..into my hp!..record!..siaoz..finally gifing up and telling me nex time den she record again..whaha..

reach home, bathe..called dear..whoo~..chat chat..chat till 2am..haha..he has to leave camp at 530..liaoz lo..keke..but ar..our chat was kinda.........i dunno..haiz..dunno y he feel so mei you an quan gan lidat..*ponders*..oh well..tt's abt it..today sunday liaoz!..supposedly to be at my dear's place..haiz..keke..nex week ba..keke..

btw, nex week..fri..anyone wanna go Fullerton fer drinks?..heh..i might be going wor..hahaha..

and oso...

damn damn damn!!!..its the 3rd of april le!!!!!..if by 6th april, no notice frm JAL..jiu tt's it le!!!..argh~~~!!!!...cham la...kan lai mei you xi wang le..sobs sobs...haiz..sadz..worse is..closing application for SIA is on 2nd april!!!..wa..........mei xi wang le la...sadz.........no more le....

chao~!...

...beauty exposed ;