1.24am..jus got home frm mahjong session wit the guys again..this time..i din lose..noe why?..cuz my base money was 41 and i was back to 41 at the end of the game..argh..how worse can it get..keke..but i had fun..thank the guys so much..keep asking me out eversince day 1 i met them..but..i wasnt quite in a mood tho..alrighty..here's abt today..
went to pasir ris to see some pups..and..it reminded me of one time,during SIP,we were so bored..robin brought us to see fish..fish farms..but..i held back my tears..and i jus miss him..this guy showed me the way to see the pups..and OH MY GOD..how can such pups not be bought?..they're so adorable!!..one pup..caught me eye..and tt is Beagle..its incredibly cute..the guy brought it out fer me, and the pup was so playful!..gnawed at my hand, my watch..so cute..keep pouncing here and dere,jumping here and dere..its an aussie breed..and they haf a mircochip in their neck..its to prove they're pure breeds...its really so adorable..and tt time,i wished he was dere..haiz..anway..when i ask abt the price, damn...$1600...my god...so expensive..but..i kinda expected it la..its expensive if the dog is not a local breed..so..we left the place, and my dad was saying he'll get me a pup..jus tt this pup is too ex..i agreed wit him..and decided to ask my brother fer a lobang..yea...my bro agreed...so..we left..head back to simei again..same old dogs..den we left the place..and i went to guowei's hse again..
waited fer wei downstairs..accompanied him to buy ciggy..den we sat down at his block..and started chatting..of cuz..chatted abt our studies, school, wat i'm gonna do next, future, army, HIM, our fwenz...alot..chatted till abt 9pm, we headed back to his home while waiting fer felix, tiong and eddie to arrive..those guys were so slow..ah doi..at abt 10pm, we started playing mahjong le..i actually msg HIM and ask if HE wanna play..can come join me and play..i dunno wat made me do tt..i jus had the sudden urge to msg HIM, asking HIM if he wanna play..but..in the end, HE din..HE was too tired frm his work..i msged HIM a good nite msg...but HE din reply..when i msg HIM again, i tot HE was "dao"..HE replied me..saying HE was sleeping..luckily i din disturb HIM frm his slp..den HE went to bathe and HE felt slightly refreshed..so, we chatted awhile..and..i told HIM..i dunno wat to msg HIM le..cuz its so diff not to say the things tt i wanna say..but instead, HE reply me saying tt HIS phone low batt, gonna charge phone, phone not by HIS side, good nite, slp early and tk care...haiz...no choice ba...wat can i do....
after the mahjong game, we left..i walked alone by myself while the 3 guys were behind me...once again, my tears got the betta of me..i cried again..sorry peeps..it reminded me of HIM, walking wit me, holding hands while heading to tk cab home..tt time, i could still hug and kiss HIM..now..i'm all alone..i cried again..while waiting fer cab, i cried again..the feeling was so different when i was in the cab...i've seldom taken a cab after i've known HIM..cuz HE will be dere to send me home..i took the PIE back home..argh..reminded me of HIM again..i'm in the car, with HIM by my side, and i can jus rest while my hand is on HIS lap while HE drives me home..i remember HIM telling me its the first time a girl puts her hand on HIS lap while HE drives..HE feels so comforted..after HE told me this, whenever i'm in the car, i'll do tt..my tears flowed..again..i had to tell the cab driver where to exit..and i owaes nid not say anything..cuz HE's dere..when i got home..i stopped at the bus-stop..i cried while i got off..i owaes get off in front of my hse..before i get off the car, we owaes hug and kiss our goodbyes..on each other's lips..and i'll tell HIM to drive carefully and be careful..i owaes tell HIM this till he remembers wat i owaes hafta say to HIM..and HE'll repeat after me..so cute..and HE'll be in HIS car, watch me, while i walk up to my hse..and i'll owaes wave goodbye to HIM, gif HIM a flying kiss as HE drives off..it reminded me of all tt...i miss HIM..and my heart and mind says i really do miss HIM alot..no doubt abt it..but..wat can i do..i can only miss and love HIM in my heart..i miss YOU..i really do...
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your whole heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms, darling
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
To make you understand how much I love you
To make you understand how much I miss you
My heart says I love you and there is no doubt at all
