reading frm sinting's blog, i controlled my tears again..thank you buddy..for owaes been dere fer me when i'm feeling devastated..yes, i'm devastated..this painful ordeal..has involved my parents..my daddy and my mummy..they were dere and they showered me wit love and care ever since i stepped into this world..they were dere to dry my tears and to do wat ever they can ever since i made my first cry..for once, i realize my parents can feel the same for me..for once, i realize they can understand my problems..peeps, do tell ur parents if u have problems..cuz u dunno how much love they show u is incredible..i couldnt breathe yday, couldnt slp yday..but i forced myself to..and yes, i finally slept after a day of "cant slp"..slept till abt 5am, he msg me he reach home..i replied him back..and we started msging each other again..my hp batt went low..and i went out to tk my charger..my daddy saw me, he ask me "u cant slp izzit"..i said i slept but wake up again..den i went into my room, plug in the charger and started to msg him again while i was squatting on the floor..my mummy came in, she told me daddy couldnt slp the whole nite and wanna ask me some stuffs cuz daddy dun understand why he stated this kinda reasons for a break-up..i nodded my head and she ask me to sit down on the floor..when my parents were in my room, mummy insisted not to switch on the lights..so, 3 of us sat on the floor and i slowly tell them everything..i was still msging him..talking halfway, something shocked me, made me heartbroken..daddy consoled me halfway and he patted my shoulder..while he patted, he suddenly burst out crying..he started to cry, mummy started to cry..i was so heartbroken!..i saw my parents cry in front of me..he said to me "u're my youngest child, and i only haf u..i see u suffer so much..it pains my heart so much.."at tt moment, i couldnt help but hold on to both of them and say "i'll be ok..dun worry abt me"..mummy said to me "i only haf u..u're my only one..mum see u lidat, i'm so xin tong"..i really felt lyk hugging them so tightly..after awhile, dad calmed down, mum calmed down..this time..i was the one tt started to cry..i din noe telling my mum abt this will cause them to be lidat..if i've known, i wouldnt haf told her..my mind was blank yday..i dunno wat to do..they talked to me till 6 plus..daddy told me "dun be afraid, u haf me and mama..anything u wan, anything u nid, tell us..we gif u..go find some place u wanna go, and daddy brg u dere"..mummy said "dun think of suicide, dun think of anything foolish..dun go and end ur life.."..i realized they noe how much pain i'm going through..i couldnt help but stare blankly and started tearing..i love my parents..after this incident, i promised myself i will tk gd care of dem and make sure nothing can harm them..i wan the best for my parents..this thing has haunted him..he is feeling guilty..but no matter how i try, i still cant haf the chance..i'm keeping my hopes high, tt i will be back wit him..2 yrs is gonna be the challenge for me..my buddies, thank you for all yr support..this is the worst ordeal i've ever come across..
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A Valentine is nothing like
A chocolate or a rose.
For in a week these shall be gone,
But Valentines remain.
If love were always sweet to tongue
Or fragrant to the nose,
Each day would be like Valentine's,
And we would go insane.
A Valentine just hangs around
Waiting to be kissed
Long after special days have passed
And every days are here.
So one is wise to choose me as a Valentine
As i'm hard to resist.
For in the midst of love
It's nice to have me near.
__this is wat he wrote to me when we were so much in love..& now, all's been forsaken..__
Fat: buddy..thank you so much..i really appreciate it..sorry, i made u tired by accompanying me..sorry i was pouring out everything to u..really am glad tt u're here wit me..thank u for everything..
Pat: sorry..my mood aint good when u msg me..i was crying..sorry..its really really painful and extremely hard..
