Monday, November 28, 2005
dun ask me how am i..cuz i will tell u 1 thing.. "i'm FREAKING TIRED"..seriously, i dun haf enuff slp..argh~..
jus came back frm Hyderabad turn..dun ask me wad country is tt, its jus in INDIA..yes, its my 3rd time heading to India..but its jus different parts of the country..why do i owaes kana indian flights..although the load was light, i worked as if it was full load..my god..
wishing tt i faster get home, is my only thing..i was so tired..when turbulence came, i wished it was all the way to SIN..but too bad la..haha..even sitting down for 10 mins, i fell aslp..can imagine how i tired i was?..yea baby!..tt's why i wished turbulence was all the way!..haha..
i'm freaking tired..i wan off days!!!..
things haven been going well for my brain..i've been thinking..
my galfwenz will noe tt someone is back for me..tt someone, i gave up for the reasons..crappy reasons?..but now, i finally noe wad it is all about..wad the real reasons were..but, wad i keep saying is tt its too late..cuz someone else is in my life..
seriously, if i could turn back time, i wouldn't haf start in any of the relationship..cuz, both WAS and IS someone i love..i love the person in my life now..he has taught me things tt i will neva teach myself..he has made me think, made me independent, made me change my attitude..he has changed my life..
but thinking back, the other person, i used to love too..he has given me plenty of pamperings..owaes pampering, doting me as if i'm a baby..but, he has neva made me think cuz he knew i dun lyk to think..any problems, he'll jus settle for me..this was how pampered i am..
but now, all things haf changed..i've changed too..now tt i noe the real reasons, dere is nothing i can do..i cant stop u, frm wad u wanna do..i haf my choice, i haf the entitlement of choosing..
why do things happen in this way..why muz it be tt when someone loses something precious, den will regret and come back searching for tt precious again..its a human mentality?
hmm..i dunno..
i'm tired..very tired..
...beauty exposed ;